Sunday, October 13, 2013
For some reason, October ends up being my crossroads month. October's flower is the Calendula (a modern Latin diminutive of calendae, meaning "little calendar", "little clock" or possibly "little weather-glass").
How appropriate, because I feel the ticking of time. The holidays and end of the year loom in the near distant future, and I feel the change of the seasons, even living somewhere that claims none.
I got a small promotion recently, bumping my schedule into longer hours, less food and less down-time. I am overstimulated, working almost 70 hours while understaffed and newly responsible for a whole lot more. I've responded to this by worsening my habits. Fasting doesn't work well for me, because I swing harder in the opposite direction.
So I'm seeking balance, and trying to prevent myself from retreating into isolation, while also reducing my obligations. It's a tricky tightrope.
I hope to get it figured out.