31 lost. 44 to go. A little down about it.
Saturday, October 12, 2013
I've lost 31 pounds. My current goal is to lose 44 more.
I'm not even halfway there, and I feel like I'm doing everything right and working hard. BUT IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY.
What do I tell myself to stay motivated? I did just read a blog post from BRADMILL2922 who weighed over 500 pounds and has lost enough to get in the 200's. THAT is awesome.
I have to remember that this is a lifestyle change. Even if I didn't lose ANY more weight, I would still feel better from the clean foods and working out I am doing.
There's part of me--a big part of me--that doesn't believe I can get out of the 160's (I'm currently 166). When I feel stuck in the 160's, I try to think of how to accept my current 160-ness. I think to myself, "Well, my fat is still protecting me at some level. I am scared of the opposite sex approaching me with interest, and my fat is keeping them away." Having to wait for the weight to go away does give me time to deal with my fears of attention from the opposite sex. I'm not scared of the actual attention from the opposite sex--I'm scared of the unhealthy ways I could act with that attention. One day at a time I will heal from this and trust myself more.
One day at a time. One meal at a time. One glass of water at a time. One good night of sleep at a time. One workout at a time. Et cetera.
Thanks for reading.