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31 lost. 44 to go. A little down about it.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

I've lost 31 pounds. My current goal is to lose 44 more.

I'm not even halfway there, and I feel like I'm doing everything right and working hard. BUT IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY.

What do I tell myself to stay motivated? I did just read a blog post from BRADMILL2922 who weighed over 500 pounds and has lost enough to get in the 200's. THAT is awesome.

I have to remember that this is a lifestyle change. Even if I didn't lose ANY more weight, I would still feel better from the clean foods and working out I am doing.

There's part of me--a big part of me--that doesn't believe I can get out of the 160's (I'm currently 166). When I feel stuck in the 160's, I try to think of how to accept my current 160-ness. I think to myself, "Well, my fat is still protecting me at some level. I am scared of the opposite sex approaching me with interest, and my fat is keeping them away." Having to wait for the weight to go away does give me time to deal with my fears of attention from the opposite sex. I'm not scared of the actual attention from the opposite sex--I'm scared of the unhealthy ways I could act with that attention. One day at a time I will heal from this and trust myself more.

One day at a time. One meal at a time. One glass of water at a time. One good night of sleep at a time. One workout at a time. Et cetera.

Thanks for reading.

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  • NHES220
    You should not feel down at all. You are making great progress. I have been at this since 2 days after Christmas and making slow but steady progress. You really just have to take it 1 day, 1 meal at a time, just like Brad said. But if you feel like your fat is protecting you, you may be at risk for putting it back on. I think you really need to be comfortable in your own skin as you lose the weight or you may use the weight as protection. Keep going, one day at a time. You can do this!
    1588 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Thank you for the mention! You have the right attitude with the one day, meal, even glass of water at a time! Success is built on those blocks!
    1588 days ago
  • GHK1962
    One day you will trust yourself...and believe...

    So for now...we will believe for you. Because I have faith in you... you ARE doing ok. You are....
    1589 days ago
    I've been stuck in the 180s since May and it is torture...actually, I've been bouncing up into the scares me....I try so hard and try to do everything right and try to eat better and get in plenty of exercise....and nothing seems to be I feel your pain....keep working along.....and like you's the change of a healthier lifestyle...
    1589 days ago
    Are There any books that deal with the psychological aspects of losing weight? It seems to me that you've hit a.roadblock that isn't about weight loss and you need to deal with it before progressing. I wish I knew of one. Good luck!!
    1590 days ago
    Oh how I wish I was back in the 170's right now. I had lost then had a serious fall, gained my weight all back and now? Back over 200. I wish I was 173 again I was much happier even though it took forever to get there! Be happy at how far you have come don't think "I'm not even half way there" you have achieved so much!!
    1591 days ago
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