Saturday, October 12, 2013
I've been trying to plan for the future, which really isn't something that I do. I've been making lists and doing research. I am trying to move forward and give myself a sense of purpose. I think that's been the hardest thing for me, feeling like I have no purpose in this life. I used to take care of my ex-husband. I used to be the problem solver, the repairman, the money maker, and pretty much everything else for me. Now, it's just me. Now I have to take care of me, and I have no idea how do that. Some I have to learn, and part of that is figuring out what I want out of my life. I started planning a trip to the Grand Canyon. I want to take two weeks to drive there and back. That way I can add to my list of states visited. I'm trying to make like a bucket list of sorts, and then figure out ways to check items off that list. I have to look forward to my life, and move beyond my past mistakes and regrets.