Jumbled up feelings inside
Saturday, October 12, 2013
The end of a long and demanding week. I am so tired and my emotions are a mess inside. Today I found out that SOMEONE is appearing at the Wells Fargo Center near me on October 25.
No, seriously. The show was nearly sold out so all I could get was a cheap seat, and not the accessible seat I really need. I got on the aisle, but I'll have to stuff myself into a chair that's much too small and tight. But who knows when/if I'll get another chance? The horrible thing is, I almost cried when I bought the ticket. My situation is smooth enough that affording the ticket wasn't the issue. Guilt? I don't know. And I have a depressing history of talking myself out of shows that I've bought tickets to. I can't do that this time. It's Alton, for goodness' sake!
I also realized something depressing tonight (well, it's been growing for awhile now). I watched Masterchef Junior tonight. My friends consider me a good cook, but I'm realizing just how limited I am. The kids (one of whom is only nine) made Beef Wellington tonight. Good Lord, it makes my roast beef and Yorkshire pudding look like a Big Mac by comparison. I've got to get more training. That means I have to lose weight so I can stand for the two hours or so a class session will last. I've advance-ordered a book (two paychecks between now and then) called The New Orleans Plan - Eat, Exercise and Live Well. Not only does the whole thing ring my psychological bells, but the co-author grabbed my attention right away.
I just have to remind myself to stop ogling the cover picture and actually READ the book.
I haven't felt well for several days. Headache, gritty eyes and knotted shoulders. Hopefully a quiet weekend will help me feel better.