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Saturday, October 12, 2013

The end of a long and demanding week. I am so tired and my emotions are a mess inside. Today I found out that SOMEONE is appearing at the Wells Fargo Center near me on October 25.

No, seriously. The show was nearly sold out so all I could get was a cheap seat, and not the accessible seat I really need. I got on the aisle, but I'll have to stuff myself into a chair that's much too small and tight. But who knows when/if I'll get another chance? The horrible thing is, I almost cried when I bought the ticket. My situation is smooth enough that affording the ticket wasn't the issue. Guilt? I don't know. And I have a depressing history of talking myself out of shows that I've bought tickets to. I can't do that this time. It's Alton, for goodness' sake!

I also realized something depressing tonight (well, it's been growing for awhile now). I watched Masterchef Junior tonight. My friends consider me a good cook, but I'm realizing just how limited I am. The kids (one of whom is only nine) made Beef Wellington tonight. Good Lord, it makes my roast beef and Yorkshire pudding look like a Big Mac by comparison. I've got to get more training. That means I have to lose weight so I can stand for the two hours or so a class session will last. I've advance-ordered a book (two paychecks between now and then) called The New Orleans Plan - Eat, Exercise and Live Well. Not only does the whole thing ring my psychological bells, but the co-author grabbed my attention right away.

I just have to remind myself to stop ogling the cover picture and actually READ the book.

I haven't felt well for several days. Headache, gritty eyes and knotted shoulders. Hopefully a quiet weekend will help me feel better.
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  • KO1215
    Suggestion: Do something between now and then so you feel like you earned it. Isn't there a goal you can set?
    1107 days ago
    You're in my prayers. Hope you're feeling better today.
    1107 days ago
    Alton is going to be in Minneapolis is February and I want to get a ticket as well. I thought of you the minute I found out!
    Take care of yourself.
    1108 days ago
    Go to the show, and enjoy yourself. I hope you are feeling better.
    1108 days ago
    I really do hope this weekend does good for you. Please don't talk yourself out of going to the show-you will SO love Alton!
    1108 days ago
    You deserve a treat now and then. Why not do it for the joy you will have when the time comes. emoticon
    1108 days ago
    Please don't talk yourself out of going. You deserve a treat, and just looking at Alton is a delight. I'm sure you'll have fun, and probably learn a lot too.

    As for the nine-year-old chefs,they probably have super-supportive parents who have encouraged them -- maybe even pushed them -- to experiment with various interests until they found their passion. Many of us didn't have that support and encouragement from our families. I consider myself an adequate plain cook, but certainly not a good one.And my mother once told me, at Thanksgiving dinner, which I prepared without a working oven, that using packaged gravy made me a bad wife.

    On the other hand, some of the meals you've prepared with fairly limited resources are amazing. While you're wishing you could be like the guys on TV, many of us wish we had your creativity and talent. emoticon
    1108 days ago
  • LIS193
    1109 days ago
    all the best
    1109 days ago
    I see he also has a meet and greet ticket you can buy to meet personally with him before the show and take a photo with him and ask him questions. I SAY TREAT YOURSELF TO THAT ONE SINCE YOU ARE A BIG FAN. A early Christmas gift to yourself well deserved.

    Have Fun!

    1109 days ago
    I am sure you will enjoy the show! It is the getting there that is the challenge.
    Hope you feel better soon!
    1109 days ago
    oh honey you have to go. *hug* you already purchased the ticket & you're so excited. please don't limit yourself. I'm tired of limiting me. go to the show, treat yourself the way you should be treated, & have fun. if you don't toot your own horn no one will. :) please go, have a blast!
    1109 days ago
    Enjoy the show!!! GO! Don't talk yourself out of it! YOU deserve to treat yourself, and even though it's ABOUT food, it's not EATING food, so double bonus points that you can enjoy it and it's ALTON BROWN for goodness sake. Get going girl! HUGS
    1109 days ago
    Enjoy the show! You deserve a little TLC!
    1109 days ago
    Enjoy Alton - my son absolutely thinks he just about walks on water - he has so much trivial knowledge and I think my son thinks he is the chef with the style most like his own cooking style. He would probably tackle you for that ticket.
    1109 days ago
    emoticon enjoy the show
    1109 days ago
  • KITT52
    relax and will be fine ...hugs enjoy the show
    1109 days ago
    1109 days ago
    I bet Alton is a hoot... Treat yourself with compassion, love and worthiness. DO not let the guilt drive you downward. emoticon
    1109 days ago
    I saw that Alton is coming here to and had to take a double take. I'm so happy that you got yourself a ticket to go see him. Don't you feel guilty for doing something good for yourself. You deserve it and you will enjoy every bit of it.
    1109 days ago
    if that picture is on the cover, i might never get inside the book either.
    1109 days ago
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