Friday, October 11, 2013
Be warned in advance that I didn't sleep much last night. I had restless leg all night long. They feel like charlie horses jumping into my legs. I got up at 1:00AM and didn't go back to bed until 5AM. I tend to be a bit dismal under those conditions. That being said, I weighed this morning, on my mortal enemy the scale. Even after I have promised myself that I don't care what I weigh as long as I am healthy, I am falling back into old patterns of caring very much what the scale says. Two days this week I weighed 222, then I get up today and weigh. 224. So it seems that it is taking me three to four weeks to see any weight loss now. But why do I keep beating myself up over it. I also went and walked the track at the ballpark today. Granted my legs and feet are still bothering me, but it is so much easier still to walk the flat track, but I know that I need to practice on the hilly roads, because the 5K I am walking in is very hilly. I walked the hills this morning. And it was so beautiful today. It is like my perfect weather. Anyway, this is the first time since I started that I need to hear what some of you have done to break free of the scales, and how you marked your success in other ways. I already removed my weight tracker I had up. Who thought that would be a great plan? It is now a countdown to the Turkey Trot. I want to be able to finish so much. I know that I have some major health obstacles to deal with to get there. I won't know until I try, though. I need some help with this as far as changing my mindset from losing 2-3 pounds a week. My biggest fear is that if I don't weigh, I will be out of control with my weight. To me the amount of calories they are suggesting seems high. But do I trust that it will work in the long haul. Funny thing is, until I was told I was prediabetic, my daughter the nurse, says hyperglycemic is more politically correct, I had gotten to the point that I didn't care that much. At 63 I decided I was not going to spend my life worrying about what I weigh. Then here I am obssessing once again. Okay the blog has enough negativity. I will be more positive tomorrow. I promise. Hurting and tired is not a great combo. On the bright side I managed to walk twice today, and I am getting a new Kindle tablet under my warranty. I think I am going to have to go back to my desktop some. Peace Be still.
Over ate cinnamon graham crackers, and pretzels with peanuit butter, and still stayed in my calorie range.