I am happy to say I made it through an Insanity DVD Wednesday and one of the newest Firm DVDs today. In spite of an Achilles tendon ache behind my right heel and labored panting which sounded like the whole neighborhood could here, I am very happy to say I didn't give up.
I was once in pretty good shape, but as many of you know, life has a way of sneaking its way into the best laid plans of keeping it up.
The most inspiring thing I realize is that it's never too late to start anew. When I first began my own 'road not taken', I was the size I currently am. (after childbirth). Never did I think I would muddle through during my early 50s on this same path.
Because I am such a driven woman, I am fighting something new, not just being overweight.
I'm battling PTSD and this is no joke.
The times I had been temporarily knocked off the beaten path was because of physical injuries (rotator cuff, herniated disc in my back, skin grafts) but never because of major depression. My ego is not happy with this, but who's to say this cannot happen to any body under any type of situation?
What I'd come to understand is not many a person knows what to say if you confide this. Oftentimes it is with a clumsy, mostly awkward mumbling of "you will be OK" that is offered with a limp pat on the shoulder. I had also discovered, to my disappointment, is when other problems occur alongside it (my temporary separation), friends let you down. I have lost a few along the way, and after prayer and meditation, I see it was the best thing for me. I don't need dead weight to heal.
I encourage anyone who is suffering from any type of emotional weight is to discuss this with your doctor. Next, GET UP AND MOVE! Sure, you may have put on weight, perhaps because you haven't been motivated to move or due to prescribed meds (which can be a two-edged sword). An easy walk, a few moments on a recumbent bike can definitely make you feel much better as you go step by step towards a newer you.
My age group is disappointed because it take a harder push to get the job done, but it can be done. You just have to set your mind to it, along with eating mindfully. Also, encouraging friends and joining like-minded people who have the same goals make all the difference.
(Yawn). If you'll excuse me, let me get some water and grab a nap!