Friday, October 11, 2013
I am not whining I am throwing a fit. I am that two year old that is sitting screaming in the middle of the floor. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yep NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yea NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO really must we do this.
I have had foot issues for as far back as I remember. Every doctor that has ever treated my foot with the exception of one has said " loose weight and this wont keep happening". LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE LIAR LIAR.
Two weeks i felt the little pinch but i said no that is just my imagination. I would get up and the pinch was there no it isnt not possible. I would be laying in bed and that sharp little pain no it is just because you push so hard dont let your imagination run wild here.
Planning on walking tomorrow in a race I said today that i wouldnt walk on the pavement. And at 1.5 miles there it was but it was not a pinch it was the stake, I know that feeling all to well. That hot stake that sends the most unbearable pain through my right heel. I saw my pt person but only to see what she thought i should do at this point. The core that i have now had removed twice from my foot is back and it brought with it two pressure points . After loosing 116 pounds I let myself believe the idiots were right that it was my fault because i was obese ... screw them i am leaner , trimmer, smaller, stronger , healthier and that little thing is back to reek havoc on my life again. The should be very happy right now that the can not get into a sparring ring with me. I have now been told i can walk any more till this stupid thing is de something which means they are going to shave my foot down to good tissue again and just so you know that hurts. I can not wear socks REALLY my feet are never ever bare except when i sleep. I am so hurt disappointed pissed at the moment i cant even come close to putting that into words. The thought that they might have to operate again is petrifying. Do you have any idea what it takes to lay on a couch and not gain weight ? it is like selling your soul to Satan. I am sorry it is not a happy blog but i just had to get it off my chest .