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Friday, October 11, 2013

For the past couple of weeks I've been feeling 'on the verge' that I'm sliding down that slippery slope and losing it. emoticon

While I HAVE been reaching out to my awesome therapist, SP Friends and dear family for support and getting tons, my jangling nerves, sleepless nights and hysterical crying jag yesterday was a HUGE wake up call that it was time for me to call in the Calvary. I decided to get myself into my primary dr for some bigger ammunition. emoticon

Fighting down embarrassment and humiliation, I managed to give the nurse and dr a thumbnail of all the dreck emoticon without breaking down utterly and completely. emoticon

They were VERY KIND. Spent a LONG TIME (~an hour) listening to me & talking (NOT the usual 2 minute breeze in/breeze out appt.) emoticon

Long Story Short: Altho I was ashamed to admit I couldn't handle everything on my own medication-free, I took their advice and now have a rx for Xanax. As a rule, I like to keep clear and rarely indulge in anything stronger than HOT skinny mochas emoticon , but I allowed myself to accept their advice and help.

1/2 Xanax (I was afraid to take a whole one) emoticon at bedtime and I slept peacefully ALL night! emoticon Woke up feeling more like my optimistic self


All this has been REALLY hard for me to admit and share cuz I've ALWAYS been of the mindset that I CAN AND SHOULD DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING ON MY OWN.

I'm sharing my hard-learned lesson that we NEED EACH OTHER and IT'S OK TO REACH OUT FOR HELP.

What a Concept! emoticon

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    Great work on getting the help you needed. So glad you got some relief and some sleep.
    1462 days ago
    I'm glad the Xanax has helped get yourself back to who you want to be. I have found that the things that are hard to share are what really need to be shared.
    1462 days ago
    Patty- good for you for doing what you need to to take care of yourself. Also, I saw your photo post from earlier in the week and you look awesome emoticon
    Hang in there!
    1465 days ago
    Sending you love!
    1465 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    Don't feel bad, Patti. Most of us have been in your situation at one time or another. That's why we're are all here - to help each other out when they/we need it.It's just to get you through whatever changes your body is going through at the moment. It's a temp9orary situation. Believe that this is helping your body, mind, and psyche to get centered once again, and in balance. Repeat after me . . .Ommmmmm. . . emoticon

    1466 days ago
  • CSYOUNG1952
    Nothing wrong in needing a little help every once in a while.

    1466 days ago
    My Dr. told me that life events change body chemistry and it is ok to get what you need to get you where you need to be. So glad you shared the message with others. emoticon
    1467 days ago
    It is hard to reach out for help, but it always ends up being the best thing for you. Don't feel bad about taking medicine either, i take a mood stabilizer, antidepressent, and two kinds of anxiety pills a day. Hey whatever it takes to make you feel better emoticon I have no regrets about getting help and I now see a therapist often to help me deal with my irrational emotions and things that are bothering me. I hope that you start feeling better and if you ever want to talk you can spark mail me emoticon emoticon
    1467 days ago
  • HINK2013

    Glad that you reached out and asked for help!!!!
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