Friday, October 11, 2013
5th weekend of shows, 5 performances left.
My back to 200lbs Challenge is no longer on. I cannot do it anymore and have simply given up. Perhaps it's not in my cards to have a 1 in front of my weight anymore. It sucks and as a result of my disappointment I have stayed away from Spark. I know I shouldn't, but at this point I can't handle the disappointment and embarrassment. Plus, I'm sure that my negativity isn't helping any of my SparkBuddies.
Nutrition = I have been keeping up my freggie intake, but my late night eating has been disastrous and downright scary. Cake, ice cream, additional meals. It's almost as if I'm back to being 285, as if all of the growing I strived to do last year did nothing to curb my old habits and coping mechanisms.
Water Intake = Excellent.
Exercise = None. Me = LAZY.
Clothing Fit, Inches Lost = Some items are getting snug, some aren't. Annoying, but to be expected.
Stress Level/Exhaustion = I'm at my breaking point.
1). I got a lovely compliment from a co-worker who has been keeping an eye on my progress. "You look great!"
2). My new shrink complemented me on confronting my Dad about his physical abuse. That made me feel good.
What I'm Grateful For:
Have a great weekend SparkBuddies and thanks for listening.
Romans 8: 7 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."