Friday, October 11, 2013
Week 1 A& I Team Challenge Ghastly Ghosts
I am to blog about my progress for the past month and my goals for this month.
Disclaimer-My internet went down yesterday and my computer went down also yesterday. But I still wanted to get this posted even though it is late. I started this yesterday until my computer went haywire. I am not worried about getting my points I just wanted this written.
First off I want to start off talking about my journey thus far. I started this journey back in 2010 under a different user name. I had lost almost 50 pounds but gained it and more back. It is not like I totally fell off the wagon but I fell and hit very hard. Lots of stressors that I had not dealt with that were happening in my life and the meds did not help with any weight loss, ok not to mention I didnít exercise, eat right, and the list goes on and on of all the excuses on can think of. Oh well, that is the past now moving forward.
Ok, letís fast forward to June 24, 2013. I decided actually a little before that to start sparking again. I decided to close my old account and totally start new with a new name and a new beginning. I had my goals set up in my head and that is as far as that went. I didnít really do anything about those goals. They were just in my head. I was just mentally preparing myself for this journey. I would log on and spin for my daily points, would occasionally do spark coach since I had a free trial membership. Nothing else about me was changing. Eating the same way, not exercising, and the list goes on. . I did go and put my start weight in June 21st and a day later stepped on the scale and was down 2 pounds but other than that believe me when I tell you nothing really changed. That was me for about a month
Now letís move on to July 22, 2013, almost a month before my birthday. I really needed to get serious about this. In three years I would be turning 50, yes the BIG 50 and what have I done or accomplished for myself. I started to faithfully do Spark Coach and even paid the year subscription. I put together a plan of action and even blogged about it. I was starting to get pumped finally. I decided I was going to do this. I still made the same type of meals, but ate less, I occasionally did some exercise, and I didnít log anything I ate. (I have to admit I am the worldís worse logger). I donít know how many times in the past I have put that down as a goal and never accomplished it. Maybe one day. Ok so I made a few changes and really nothing consistent. But I was sticking to it. I was not going to give up, not this time. I was trying to find the magic key that would really put that motivation in me. Where was what I had before? Searching and searching I still could not find it. I was looking for something I had before. I was beginning to realize it is not the past that is going to help me find my motivation it is the present and the future that was going to get me there. I know I look at the past a lot and think I just needed to figure out the why this or why that when all I am really doing is just wasting a lot of my time on something that is just not for me to know. I can only go from this day forward. I decided I really need this to work for me. I was now making a few more changes and really thought hey this good. Hey I even stopped stepping on the scale every day. I did something I had not done in a while and that was I actually wrote down my goals and really worked hard to accomplish them. I was walking, doing wall pushups and other activities. I was working on my goals and that was a step in the right direction.
Now my birthday, the day I am not sure I can say I was waiting for but it was the day I was to step on the scale. Imagine my surprise when in that month I lost 3 pounds. What, only 3 pounds! After putting more effort into this, this is all I get. I started to get discouraged a bit at first but turned it quickly around. This was only a number, it must be all those little tears in my muscles from working out more, the swelling, etc. I was not going to let that number get to me. I knew than I was not going to let anything get in my way. I was determined to reach my goal.
Labor Day weekend, a weekend I was looking forward to. I had this tripped planned all summer to go see my dad. I had a wonderful time there. We had great conversation and believe me when I tell you lots of eating. We went out every day someplace new and exciting but there was just so much food. It was so good and I just could not stop. Well when I arrived back home after being gone for only 4 days, I stepped on the scale again. Why did I do that, I gained back everything I had lost except the first original 2 pounds. Here I go again, WHY do I struggle so much when I am around family with my eating? Why is eating a big part of all get togethers? Why do I allow myself to get so out of control? I didnít even record my weight gain I was frustrated with myself that I allowed myself to be like that. I have to do something different.
I know my mom was coming for a visit the Friday after I returned home. She did have the gastric bypass surgery and had lost weight prior to the surgery and of course after it as well. This whole year she has been working on all of that after she found out my brother had the surgery and it went well for him so she decided she would do it also. During my momís weeklong visit I watched and imitated how and what she ate. She told me some of the things her doctor told her. So one of the biggest things was to eat protein first thing in the morning, donít drink anything Ĺ hour before your meal, during your meal and Ĺ hour after your meal but other than that drink water, water, water. Eat lots of fresh veggies and fruit. Donít eat a lot at one time, slow down when eating, and a bunch more things. Well I had an egg with veggies most mornings with flax flakes, a little bit of cheese and scrambled that and cooked in the microwave for a minute and a half. I was used to eating a bowl of cereal every morning (I could eat cereal for all my meals). We ate lean proteins and fresh veggies and fruit for meals, had smoothies with protein powder for snacks. Now I was used to eating some sort of protein with starchy veggies, potatoes, and fruit for my meals before this. I learned I need to cut out my starchy veggies and starchy foods. The not drinking during meals is to not flush the protein out of the body right away so it has time to absorb. I am now also eating my main meals on our small plates. My mom didnít count any calories (woo hoo I donít have to count and log my caloriesÖremember I donít do well at this. This is a big struggle for me). We went for a walk every day or at least some type of exercise. During the week my mom was here I lost 10 pounds. I was so excited. Wow I couldnít believe it, it was really happening, I was losing weight. I know weight is not everything and I had decided that I was not going to allow the number to make or break me. I know my weight will go up and down and I will still continue this journey I have had days where I struggle and want to eat everything in sight.
I have continued with my eating habits I learned while she was here. I do get urges to eat and eat and eat. I now tend to grab for fruits or veggies when I get those urges and tell myself one scone at a time. I do have to tell of a story that happened also while my mom was here. I was at my Adult Sunday Class and someone so nicely brought in some fresh made scones. Oh how I wanted one so bad, I would keep looking at them and looking at the people eat them and hear the comments on how good they were. Well a friend of mine was sitting next to me and she was also watching what she was eating and trying to not have one also. I was so glad she was there. It was the strength I needed just knowing someone else was not having one. During class someone got up to get a scone and we both looked over. She writes something down on her paper. She shows me what she wrote and it says ďNO SCONESĒ. After our class we had a chance to talk. We congratulated each other for not taking a scone. They were even offering everyone to take some home. I knew that would be a big no-no. We both stayed strong and as we talked she said each little step we take it is just one scone at a time. So now every time I am tempted with something I say to myself one scone at a time. One small step at a time will lead me to the big picture, my final goal.
I had lost 15.4 pounds the month of September. I know this is just a small step and that is what I am doing is look at each step I do it is just one small step toward my big long term goal that I have mentioned in my previous blog. I am learning and growing along the way. There are many things I still struggle with. But with Spark and all it has to offer, my friends, family, and of course God I will make it.
My goals for the month of October are almost the same as I set in my blog in July
*I will drink a minimum of 8 glasses of water a day so I will be healthy and hydrated along with all the extra benefits of drinking water.
*I will keep a journal and write in it at least 4 times a week so I can see my progress and the successes I have made.
*I will do at least 20 minutes of activity/exercise 6 days a week to help me become physically fit.
*I will make time for ďmeĒ every day so I can accomplish my goals.
*I will spend at least 10 minutes a day reading the bible/devotion (my time with God) 7 days a week to continue building my relationship with God.
*I will continue to eat healthy and find new ways and new recipes to try.
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