Friday, October 11, 2013
I have felt so very "blah" these last few weeks. Once the 5% challenge was over, I also found myself less motivated. Pair that with dealing with this leg thing, I have not felt the drive to put forth any effort. In retrospect, I think that if I could have just hung in there, I might be down another 5-10 pounds. But whatever. I needed a break. The pitfall of that is the current struggle to regain my gung ho attitude.
The new Fall %5 Challenge starts on Saturday so now I will have a reason to get my focus back. I haven't been eating the greatest so I've gone back up a few pounds and will re-set my ticker tomorrow morning. I'm pretty sure the gain is water from high sodium so I'm a bit wary of re-setting the ticker --when I drop back down in a few days I don't want it to seem like I've lost all this weight, when in fact it's only been water weight from my bad food choices. Regardless, looking forward to working again toward my goal and having a measure of accountability. Accountability only to myself still doesn't work for me. I have a ways to go on that aspect. I still definitely need external motivation/drivers.
My legs/feet/shin splint(?) are a bit better but the left leg is still problematic like it has been. I've tried everything from exercises, wraps, roller, etc. and it never goes away. It's not as crippling as it was at one point but it is persistent. I was seen by my primary care physician this week who told me "that isn't consistent with shin splints" when I described my pain and showed her exactly where it was. She referred me to the Orthopedic and Sports Medicine department and I see them on Thursday. In the meantime, I have still been exercising a little when I can squeeze it in my schedule, but have been going at it pretty lightly. I have really scaled back, which is sort of depressing and frustrating but I keep reminding myself that it's temporary.
Tonight I go to the gym for strength training and walk/run intervals. I'm only running in 1/4 m lengths (haven't timed how long that is). This seems to keep things nice and safe without much painful repercussion. About a week ago I ran a mile straight just to make sure I still was able to. I am so afraid of regressing, and know I have to some extent. It's been so long since I could really push it. It wasn't as effortless as it was 2 months ago but I definitely still got it and while I wouldn't be happy about it, I think I could still run two miles straight like I had been before all of this.
The situation is frustrating since running has been the most effective and most beneficial exercise I have ever done and I want to get back to it. It's definitely a sort of "use it or lose it" situation. While I love my zumba and hip hop, the classes just don't break a sweat or get my heart rate up like they used to. I do those classes for fun, not so much for the burn anymore. I would miss them if I totally stopped going though. Besides, going to them every so often helps to keep up my fantasy that I could totally "kill it on the dance floor" if I were ever presented with that challenge!
I had a MAJOR NSV this week. I now fit into the old size 12 jeans that I think I may have mentioned a few blogs ago. They fit GREAT. This made me very happy. Now if I could get my upper body to start slimming down. Unfortunately, I have an "apple" body so my top half is slower going than the lower. Depending on the cut of the shirt (not to mention the brand), my top size can vary greatly. I bought a size 14 shirt for Thanksgiving that, while it kinda fits, still is a bit tight across the chest. If I move the wrong way, there is a gap between the buttons. I'd like to be able to wear it because it's just gorgeous so I need it to be very comfortable by Thanksgiving. I hate squeezing into clothes and then having to pay attention or fuss with them to make sure they look/fit right. I am therefore motivated to work for it.
So there's my rambling way of saying "Go Team Starfish!" Let's get the 5% Challenge started!