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When does this end?

Thursday, October 10, 2013

I have always had anger problems since I was young. I have been gaining control of this for the past few months by seeing a therapist. I also have terrible anxiety which has improved over the past few months as well. I was never diagnosed with depression however since my bf (wasn't some silly relationship, we were planning our future together)recently broke up with me about 3 weeks ago all I feel lately is anger, sadness, confusion, aggression, the list goes on. I go to work and I dread coming home because I just don't want to be here alone. I never lived with him, I've had a roommate for the past few years so I'm not sure why I dread going home, I suppose it is because I don't want to be alone. I am always very sad, crying all the time when I am alone and I honestly wish I could not exist. I even looked up ways to die last night as I laid in bed crying. I feel like all of the work I have done to get a grasp on my problems has gone out the window.
I've never been in this much pain and misery and I don't know what to do to stop feeling like this. I have started to incorporate more exercise into my daily life however it takes so much energy and focus to even get myself to do anything. I just want to stop feeling this way and I don't know how. I see all of these happy people around me and I don't know how to feel like that. Why can't I be normal?
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KNYAGENYA 10/12/2013 1:03PM

    I'm sorry you are hurting. Him leaving will just make it easier for the right one to enter your life. It will get easier as you heal. emoticon

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KATRINAKAT23 10/11/2013 11:59PM

  I am so sorry you are in pain. The only thing I can tell you is that this shall pass. Nothing stays the same, but when you are going through a terrible time it feels like it will never end but it will. emoticon

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