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Thursday, October 10, 2013

I had a very busy day yesterday, and on my trip to the grocery store I forgot about my resolve that I had just determined to have a couple of days ago. So on the 4th day of my binge free streak, I ate too many sweets. I thought I'd be able to have just a few bites of the dessert. But I sat and downed the whole thing. Then I was "what the heck" and finished off the last 10 blonde Oreos. I now have decided that those two desserts, if not all desserts, for a while, will be off limits.

Today I was in Walmart at lunch time. I hadn't eaten. I had resolved I wouldn't buy food. I had yummy healthy foods at home I planned on having for lunch. I didn't go into the food aisles, but of course they have candy at the register. My resolve paid off. Of course It helped that the whole reason I went into Walmart was that I had found money in my wallet this morning that I'd forgotten about. I used half of it at the craft store and used a 55% off coupon on one item, and came out with a new item to motivate me to get back to my art journaling. The other half of the money I'd decided I wanted to find a new workout DVD. I tried Academy Sports, and would you believe they didn't carry workout videos?! So on to Walmart. I found my DVD. Another Jillian one. I'll let you know how it is soon.

There was a bonus to all my shopping. I got some movement/steps done, in spite of the fact that I feel a little under the weather with a possible cold coming on. (Therefore I can't go spend the afternoon with my MIL; don't want to get her sick in her weakened state.) I could really stretch it a bit and say my shopping at Walmart was beneficial in that I faced a challenge (Food exposure while hungry) and came out with a confidence boosting success. Success builds on success, right?

Last week sometime, my SIL and I were talking and we were talking about how someone had lost 15 pounds without any effort. I said I wish I could lose 15 pounds like that. She ( who always a nice, healthy, trim figure on her) said "are you overweight? I've never heard anyone say you were overweight before." Instead of internalizing her complement, I said that I wasn't in the category of overweight, but that I am a bit higher than is appropriate for my height. I also said I realize my body is muscular and that can account for being heavier than I look. I see myself as a lot bigger than her, and side by side of her I am. I just am surprised she doesn't see me that way. Later in the day I started appreciating that I don't look overweight. Nice feeling.

A few days later, I was in Walmart. (Haha, sounds like my usual hangout. That's a fact of life that we have to eat, so we have to buy food.) I was offered samples of cookies. 4 kinds, and she said I can try all 4. Then I mentioned that the kind I tried is my favorite of the 4 and she picks up the box and said, here, take a few with you to eat while you shop! I said no and patted my stomach and said I am watching it. She looked at me and said "where? I don't see it!" I just looked at her with a wry grin and walked on to shop. As I walked away, I thought,"She doesn't see it because I hide it well the way I dress."

So in my mind, I'm adding the two comments and trying to come to terms with the idea that people don't look at me and say, "She needs to lose weight!" or "She has a big stomach" All the things I tell myself on the days I feel insecure around other women. Including women who are littler than I am. Which really surprises me.
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  • _JODI404
    It is good to get an honest, unbiased perspective like that.

    I think you are pretty hard on yourself. I know it's human nature, but too much comparison is the thief of joy. Just try to be your best, and you will be doing great!

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    1562 days ago
    That is good feedback. We don't see ourselves accurately. I agree about being more muscular.
    1564 days ago

    Yes, it sure is nice to know that people don't see you with the critical eye that you see yourself. That frees you up to make your weight loss ALL ABOUT YOU! You can do it,
    I know you can.

    as Tim Gunn would say, "make it work"

    Love, Ginger

    1564 days ago
  • LARISSA238
    You look great in your pictures.. You really don't look overweight. Great job on resisting binge foods! You might have binged the other day, but today is a new day to start binge free!
    1564 days ago
  • KANOE10
    How nice to receive complements! Have a great day
    1565 days ago
    OH blonde oreos! I don't think I could have resisted those either.

    What great compliments you received. If only we could see ourselves the way others see us. We are our own worst critics sometimes.

    Congratulations on the progress you are making!

    1565 days ago
    Interesting thoughts. I know that after I lost weight it took me a long time to no longer feel I stil ha my old weight... I wonder what it takes to have our own idea about our size match the actual size?
    1565 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/11/2013 6:43:57 AM
    Keep up the good work. Sometimes it's nice to see how others see us.
    1565 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Little by little, you are changing both inside and out...! You will get there. :D
    1565 days ago
    Sounds very positive! Keep up the great progress and enjoy the compliments you received. emoticon
    1565 days ago
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