Thursday, October 10, 2013
Iím apparently not fit to be around people at work today. I overheard a ďgodĒ conversation and deliberately disagreed, shocking and offending one of my more naive coworkers, and I donít feel even a little bit bad about it. In fact, Iíve got more where that came from. I pity anybody who gets in my way.
Food choices are going fine, walking is great, weight loss is happening, although I need to do a bit more strength work Ė but boy is my mood angry. Iím in a very bad place relative to work and Iím not sure what Iím going to do. I feel totally trapped. Iím old enough to retire but financially unable to do so, especially since my husband lost his job after a prolonged illness (same employer and thatís a huge anger source for me). We live in an economically depressed area and heís not able to find work. I have a job I donít like, working for people I donít respect. I know this anger is not good for me but Iím out of ideas to manage it. I canít go around being rude to people and I canít just up and quit my job - and changing careers at 63 is not going to happen.
I have five days off starting tomorrow and Iím anxious for that, but I realize Iíll be right back here on Wednesday, hating every minute.