Thursday, October 10, 2013
I felt like turning 30 was the great thing - I think some of my friends when they turned 30 felt like it was all down hill from there. But I kind of felt the opposite. I was kind of freaked out about turning 30, but I didnt feel like I was going downhill. My 30th birthday included a trip to England! I found out I was getting my new job, which has had a lot of perks, like being interviewed by NPR! But my new job also brought some traumatic experiences (vicarious trauma anyone?), and needing to see a therapist. And now, being 30 is also bringing me some medical procedures, I thought I wouldnt need until I was well into my fifties!
See, I went to the GI specialist yesterday. Well, I finally got there after driving around lost on Fort Carson Army post - I never go there. The hospital signs seemed very inconsistent - even when I was following them, I couldnt find the hospital! I made it there just in time for my appointment - who needs to show up 15 minutes early, right? The doctor was very, very nice, though easily distracted by phone calls, and knocks on his door. Thats annoying to me because I definitely dont do that when I am with clients, but whatever. He listened to everything that I said was troubling my stomach, we discussed EVERYTHING. I didnt appreciate when he told I'm a bit overweight (like I didnt already know that!), but overall, he seemed concerned about my troubles. He even read through my recent blood test results and told me that I am anemic, regardless of what the PA told me a few weeks ago, because my blood tests indicate I'm not getting enough iron into my bone marrow. But he isnt prescribing me an iron supplement right now because it will just cause my stomach to hurt even more.
So - the verdict? Who knows. I am going to get blood tested tomorrow for celiacs and lactose intolerance. I got nexium for my acid reflux and some medicine for abdominal cramps. I am also having an EGD (upper GI) scope on the 23rd of October, and a colonoscopy on the 1st of November. Yup - I figured those were tests you have when you are older than thirty. I mean, I wasnt surprised that he would order those tests, but it's still a lot to take in anyway! I felt a bit (or a lot) overwhelmed as I sat down with the nurse and he went over all of the instructions for my procedures. Then I went to pre-admission, and they got my admission folders for my procedures started. And then I went to the pharmacy to pick up all of my meds, including my pre-colonoscopy pills. Fun times! I am hopeful this will help us all figure out what is going on with my stomach. But I really appreciated that the doctor didnt make me feel like I am crazy, or didnt blow me off. So, we'll see what the test results show and hopefully I can get to feeling better. It was stressful trying to schedule both procedures because since I will be sedated for both of them, I need to have someone drop me off and pick me off. J's work schedule is always difficult for me to predict because he teaches every other day and it changes each week. I can never figure out when he teaches and when he doesnt. So I had to call him from the hospital yesterday and we still couldnt find days that would work. So right now he is planning to drop me off on the 23rd before work, then go teach in the morning, and then pick me up after his class is over, drive me home, and go back to work to teach in the afternoon. The November procedure day he doesnt have to teach, but he doesnt know about meetings. However, my mom offered to fly out for that one since she already took that week off work - I think she really just wants to come visit because she's been mentioning that week for the past 2 weeks now... I havent decided whether I want her to visit or not yet...
I went home yesterday feeling really overwhelmed and really down. I didnt make it to the gym, and I got take out for dinner, even though I knew it wouldnt help my stomach feel any better. And then after I ate it I decided I was giving up fast food. I dont know why this seems so daunting to me, though. From early 2010-mid 2011 I completely gave up fast food and soda. It never seemed challenging. Well, I suppose initially it did, but I dont really remember that. So I started a new spark streak and I am determined to keep this going. It can only help, right?
I have meetings this afternoon and then I am planning to go to the gym. Probably will be a short ST session before going to jazz dance class tonight. I was pretty annoyed when I got to work this morning and had an email from a pretty jerky attorney who apparently thinks I have only one client and nothing else to do with my time than jump at his demands. So I sent him a snarky email back, and I kind of just dont care. I'm cranky, and he's not my boss. Blech.
I am looking forward to having off from work tomorrow. Planning to get my blood tests done first thing in the morning - one of them is fasting, so I figure I'll get both of them done at the same time and get it over with. Then I am going to have a nice breakfast, and get to work on getting things organized at home. I've got my list and I am hoping I can be super productive. Not sure what else I have planned for the weekend other than that, getting to the gym on Saturday, and attending a party for one of J's coworkers on Sunday. I leave Monday morning for work, so I hope I can get a ton of stuff done before then!