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I Need Prayers Today Please

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Couldn't sleep and got up at 4 a.m. to read the latest Stephen King book

Had a very pleasant morning with doggies and kitty, sipping HOT tea & HOT skinny mocha. Took a nice shower. Ahhhhhh. Thought 'It's gonna be a GREAT DAY!'

Got a call from dad's asst. living. He's 'backed up' and needs to go to urgent care (they don't have prune juice????!) I told them that I found out my dad named my big bro as executor and to call him. They said he was there yesterday and ok, they would call him.

I'm surprisingly upset. Tears, shaking hands and clutching stomach. Altho I'm RELIEVED that I'm not executor any more, I'm still upset that dad & bro are sneaking around doing stuff behind my back. My mind knows that's an irrational thought, but that's what my heart feels. I'm VERY hurt, betrayed and frankly, astounded by their behaviors. WHO are those people????? I've been around them 54 years and I DONT KNOW THEM. Wow.

When I'm upset like this, I don't eat. BAD BAD BAD. Just as bad as overeating. Pls send me your positive thoughts & prayers that I can keep focused on my good health habits and turn away from the dreck.

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    "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jer 29:11 (NIV)

    God has a plan for this and through this time and struggle with your family! God is working all around you. He feels your sorrows and frustrations, and holds every tear. But, God has plans "to give you hope and a future".

    So, pray good tidings and blessings for your brother and your dad. Focus on the love you deeply have for each of them. Pray for God's love to surround them, protect them, and to give them wisdom. So keep praying until you feel only love for them. Give God your hurts, frustrations, and tears. And pray for God to reveal HIS plans to you.

    Praying for you this morning!
    1558 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/15/2013 11:05:51 AM
    I am praying for you. Try to leave it in Gods hands.
    1562 days ago
    Hugs and prayers.
    1562 days ago
  • SAMI199
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    1562 days ago
    They took it out of your hands and now put them all in God's hands and let Him deal with them. That is all you can do. Stop worring about it. Worring about it will not do anything but make YOU sick.
    1562 days ago
    Dear Patty, praying for you and your wounded heart. Give yourself credit for all you've done and also for feeling these feelings to the full extent. So many people with weight issues try to numb these feelings. I agree with Courtney-Lee on using protein shakes to get your basic needs met for now. I hope you may be able to talk with your brother to figure out what his intentions are. Take care of yourself, you cannot control others, but you have full control of how you want to respond.
    1562 days ago
  • CSYOUNG1952
    Forgiving is a very hard thing to do, especially when you have been hurt deeply. It can also be a healing process for you. It took me years to forgive my dad for some things that he done, but before he passed away I was able to make peace and now my heart isn't as heavy as it once was.

    1562 days ago
    1563 days ago
    Patty, I am praying for you. I agree with LovingAfrica, forgive- or make the decision to forgive even if you can't right yet- you have every right to be upset, but it will take its toll on you. I'm praying for you and for your family.
    1563 days ago
    The betrayal is hard to deal with, but it is also one less burden. Forgive them asap, it is the quickest way out of the situation in YOUR heart and to healing.
    Sending you much love!!
    1563 days ago
    First, I think you have every right to be upset. Especially after everything that you have done and went through in this situation.

    About the not eating thing... When I am in an extreme emotional situation, I stop eating too. The thought of food makes me sick, and in the past I have gone days without eating anything substantial and living off of coffee (and at the time) cigarettes. You are right that it is not healthy, however, I am not going to suggest that you force yourself to eat but rather right now, use some meal supplements. Try some shakes. At least that way you will be getting the nutrition you need without the cumbersome act of eating. When things get back to "normal" you can resume with your healthy foods.

    I am thinking about you, and sending many positive energies your way my dear friend. emoticon
    1563 days ago
    Patty, I can sympathize, I am in similar situation with my brother. I have wondered for years now what happened to the brother I grew up with and loved dearly. All I can say is that it has to be them not you who has changed. Take heart that things are as they should be and be happy you dont have to make the tough calls just be a daughter. Sending much love and prayers your way.
    1563 days ago
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