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My Feelings Taste Delicious

Thursday, October 10, 2013

I have been a little bit of a mess lately. Maybe not a little. More like a lot. There’s been so much going on. I’m in a new position at work and on such a steep learning curve. Everything is taking me so long to do because I have no idea where to start. In my free time, I’ve been trying to buy my first house. Turns out this process is not as fun and easy as HGTV makes it seem. To be honest, it sucks. It’s scary and stressful. And holy that’s a lot of money! I will negotiate and commit millions of dollars of my employer’s money and think nothing of it. But spending more than $100 of my own money is a different story. Plus compulsive perfectionist in me is terrified that I’m going to screw it up somehow.

Unfortunately, I’ve found myself eating my emotions. The good/bad news here is they’re delicious because they taste like peanut M&Ms. Every year I bring in Halloween candy to the office. I’m not much of a sweets person so I’ve never had a problem resisting it. This year, I swear I’m going to turn into a Fun Size pack of peanut M&Ms. Every time I walk by, I grab one. It’s awful! And with everything else going on, I haven’t been working out consistently either. In a good week, I can usually get in my 90 minutes of cardio by Tuesday. Here it is Thursday, and I’ve worked out once this week. But it’s hard when I don’t leave the office until late and then need to go do stuff for the house (like yesterday when I had to get the contract ready to make an offer).

I was thinking this morning how grateful I am to have SP. Spark has helped me recognize when I’m eating to cope. And also recongize that it's really not helpful. Before I joined, I’m not sure I was even aware of that. Silver lining here, maybe?

Anyway, I am SUPER excited to get back on track with the 5% challenge!! GO STARFISH!
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    OMG! I do not even want to think about what my emotions taste like because I won't be able to stop thinking about them!! emoticon

    Stress and availability are two dangerous companions. emoticon emoticon

    You need to be proactive and find a way to overcome! emoticon

    Good luck and success from a fellow Starfish! emoticon

    1622 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/11/2013 9:34:35 PM
    You will get back on track. Recognizing what is going on and triggering the eating is a big step forward.

    Buying a house is a big step but it is so wonderful to have your own place. You will do great at work, at home and in the challenge. I believe in you.
    1623 days ago
  • KIMPY225
    Yay Starfish!
    Sorry to hear about the extra snacking! Maybe you can close your eyes next time you walk by! I like the idea of having apples instead of candy!

    I am starting my search for a home also - and the amount of money you have to spend is crazy! I didn't even get pre-approved yet, but just seeing some sample cost sheets makes me get so anxious!

    1623 days ago
    I love this blog and it is hitting home right now. My emotions taste like a cinnamon roll, maybe some hot chai tea latte...hmmmm....we will get past this with the help of the Fall challenge. Hugs, Laurel
    1623 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/10/2013 11:58:02 AM
  • FIT4MEIN2013
    LOL! Eating your emotions. I like that! I make sure to buy only candy that I don't like.
    1623 days ago
    Oh, my goodness: the title of your post made me laugh, because I can so relate! Do you think it would help if you set up a task to do before you let yourself have some M&Ms? I tell myself that I can't have (whatever junk food) until I run a mile, for instance, and a lot of times, I just don't want to go there, so I avoid the candy.
    1623 days ago
    Perhaps if the M&Ms aren't good for you, they aren't good for anyone else in the office, either - how about bringing in nice crisp apples, instead?

    I try to control my environment by limiting the availability of temptations. When the carp hits the fan, I sometimes find things tempting that otherwise wouldn't be, so for a while I have to limit access to them.

    Hang in there.

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