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Thursday, October 10, 2013



What comes to mind when you think back to the start of your journey? Do you remember how you felt back then? Maybe your journey started three months or three years ago, but that isn't important. Do you remember the reasons you started? Do you remember how you felt the first time you stepped on that scale and the number went down for the first time in...FOREVER! Do you remember?

I remember that over 4 years ago when I started at 509 lbs., I didn't think I had a realistic shot at seeing 299 lbs. I remember the overwhelming thought of losing 210 lbs. and the sacrifices it would take to make that goal. I remember thinking that there is NO WAY possible I can do that! Sure, I would give it my best effort and I would probably end up in the 300's somewhere. I would be happy with that because after all, I was 150 lbs. lighter, and that is something, right? I remember all the happy thoughts I had of workouts I had accomplished and pounds I had lost only to be shot down by negative thoughts creeping in my head of how far I had to go!

I remember losing 121 lbs. and gaining back 78. I remember the fears and tears along the way with what I was doing. I remember the sore muscles, the tight fitting 5xl shirts, the back pain, the pizza I passed on at work, the hours I spent sweating to workout videos in my room...alone. I remember the days where I had a backslide. The days where I wanted to throw in the towel. The days of having to talk myself into working out!

I remember stepping on the scale for that first time after I saw and felt the pain and shame of 509 lbs., and seeing a smaller number. I remember that little sense of accomplishment I felt when I got under 500 lbs. The joy when old clothes started to fit. I remember doing Insanity at 430 lbs. I remember when I really believed it was possible! I really started to believe in the idea of 299 lbs.! I remember getting in the 300's and that huge sense of relief that I had made it that far. I remember thinking that I had beaten some tremendous odds to get this far...but I would beat even more if I kept going!



I remember thinking I will finish this no matter what! I remember getting stuck around 320 lbs for over a month and really wondering if I was going to make that goal. Feeling sorry for myself because of that. I remember when I hit my one year re-Spark anniversary on May 5th and telling myself that this is NOT how my story would end. I would NOT be the guy who lost a huge amount of weight, only to be complacent and satisfied before he met his goal! I remember picking myself up yet again, and pushing harder! I remember getting to 309 lbs and being ecstatic that I had lost 200 lbs.! I remember a burning desire within me to reach 299 lbs. I remember saying to myself that I would make those last 10 lbs. my bi...well...you know! I remember the support YOU gave me!

I remember when that scale number started with a 2 for the very first time since 2000 when I was still in college!

I remembered those 13 years. What I did to myself. I remembered that I can't ever take that back but I can make it better from this day forward. I remembered to forgive myself for my past mistakes. I remembered to move forward and to try and better myself each and every day! I remembered IT IS WORTH IT! I AM WORTH IT!



Today, remember how far YOU have come. Today, remember why YOU started...

Embrace Your Possibilities

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LORIVIOLA 3/23/2014 7:58AM

    emoticon for sharing!! This is an emoticon blog.
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TERRIJ7 2/27/2014 2:21PM

    Excellent blog! Thank you!

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GRAMPIAN 12/6/2013 6:23AM

  You've done so well! emoticon

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GWINNER1 12/4/2013 7:12AM

    emoticon Those reminders help keep me grounded. You've done an awesome job.Congrats!!

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CATNCAG 12/3/2013 1:43PM

    emoticon Brad! U r emoticon ! Can't wait to c u again in January! I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! emoticon

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DRTOVAH 11/9/2013 10:50AM

  very inspiration. thanks for sharing!

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MCJULIEO 10/28/2013 10:07AM

    What great reminders... Thank you!

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HOMEBREW1075 10/25/2013 3:57PM

    Very Inspirational!!

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WHITEANGEL4 10/25/2013 3:05PM

    Well said

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AIDEN487 10/24/2013 11:04PM

  Amazing

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EFFRAYECHILDE 10/23/2013 7:37AM

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GREGGWEISBROD 10/22/2013 10:18AM

    I've had this chat recently with a few other spark people, how the person I know I am today, is a direct result of the impact being overweight has had on my life... but I love who I am, and so by embracing and remembering our whole story, it really equips us emotionally to keep pushing, and be proud of ourselves. Great post, brother.

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SIMONEKP 10/21/2013 1:57PM

    great blog, I remember every time I look in the mirror

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MOVINITMORE 10/19/2013 6:22PM

    Thanks for a great blog !! emoticon

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LEANMEAN2 10/18/2013 7:03AM

    Thanks for the reminder.

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MOVEITMARY 10/17/2013 5:35PM

    You said it all at the end:
"IT IS WORTH IT! I AM WORTH IT!"
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Amen!!!!


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BETHLOVESBIKING 10/17/2013 11:56AM

    wow...what a truly great blog! Congrats on your achievement s!! emoticon

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BUGQUEEN01 10/16/2013 11:37PM

    Wow... thank you for writing this. Amazing blog.

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GINA180847 10/16/2013 11:08PM

    Wow Brad, just WOW!!!!!!!!

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MOTIVATIONFOUND 10/16/2013 4:40PM

    Thank you so much for the reminder. Remembering why we started and how far we've come is such an important thing to do. It helps us to stay strong and stay the course...especially when we have those days that seem impossible to get through.

Another fantastic blog! You truly are such an inspiration.

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IMSMILEY88 10/16/2013 4:31PM

    What a wonderful story! Thank you for the reminding us to look back at where we began and all we've come through. I love SparkVille!

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IAMBIZI 10/15/2013 10:52PM

    I think you are amazing! So happy for you!@ emoticon
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LEANJEAN6 10/15/2013 7:13AM

    I remember all the pain in my knees---

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GINGERGAL12 10/14/2013 8:53PM

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NEW_ME_FOREVER 10/14/2013 3:55PM

    By far the best blog i have ever read that touched me mentally. Thank you thank you thank you so very much emoticon

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FAVORITEAUNT84 10/14/2013 11:25AM

    Holy Mother, I needed to read this today. emoticon

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JAIMESIZED 10/14/2013 9:21AM

    Thank you so much for this blog. It's such a huge reminder of how important it is to remember why we started.

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SEAJESS 10/14/2013 1:19AM

    emoticon blog!
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I appreciate that you didn't hide the times you had fears and doubts and struggle. It's especially wonderful because it must have seemed impossible from where you started. And then you started and kept on through all the zigs and zags and you accomplished the unbelievable!

I will be returning to read this again and again.

Thank you for being an inspiration and a delight.
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EBONYSOL 10/13/2013 7:25PM

    Remember how inspiring you are to other struggling Sparkers! Thanks for sharing.

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RACEWELLWON 10/13/2013 4:15PM

    Awesome Blog !! emoticon

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GEORGE815 10/13/2013 3:16PM

    Embrace the possibilities indeed. Hard to maintain weight loss at times.

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MRSRIGS1 10/13/2013 1:07PM

    Thank you so much for this very inspiring blog! It is so honest, well written and important for us to keep in the foreground of our minds! Let us keep pushing forward and remember how far we've traveled. We are WORTH every effort! NEVER give up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LIZ324_NYC 10/13/2013 12:28PM

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I really needed this reminder!!
Thanks so much Brad!!!

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DUXGRL1 10/13/2013 12:25PM

    I needed to hear this, too! I am 11 lbs above my goal after losing 57 lbs and have been hovering between 10-15 above my goal all year. I can't seem to break the 10 lb mark.

"I would NOT be the guy who lost a huge amount of weight, only to be complacent and satisfied before he met his goal!"

THAT guy reminds me of a certain girl I know, LOL!

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BUSMOM27 10/13/2013 7:59AM

    I am so proud of you! What an amazing story. I am struggling to do what I am supposed to do to make weight loss and good health happen. emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 10/13/2013 12:48AM

    Awesome blog..THANK YOU...I do remember.

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SASSYTHING52 10/13/2013 12:45AM

    you are awesome thanks for sharing emoticon

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MARYJEANSL 10/12/2013 11:53PM

  Well, I haven't really come far enough to have anything really to remember, but I take your point(s). You have done an amazing job, and I can only say congratulations!!

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SCRAPBECCA 10/12/2013 11:15PM

    You have no idea how very much I needed to hear these words today! Thank you for speaking up and sharing your truth and helping me to remember why I am here and what I need to do starting this very minute. emoticon

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IOWASUPERGIRL 10/12/2013 10:33PM

  You are amazing!!!

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HMBROWN1 10/12/2013 10:13PM

    Amazing! Fantastic story. You have done so well. Congrats.

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AJB121299 10/12/2013 10:04PM

    nice

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NOMORECRASH 10/12/2013 9:10PM

  very well said. thank you for sharing a wonderful story. Yes, I remember!

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MICHELLE2343 10/12/2013 8:28PM

    Way to go! What a journey you had.

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