Wednesday, October 09, 2013
I am back to watching 6ft under again and I loved this line in the show that said "Exercise is nature's anti depressed!" followed by an eye roll of the person being told. It's so true tho if I didn't have my dance classes I would be a crappy person to be around. It makes me happy, gives me energy, helps to embarrass husband in stores playing top 20 hits while shopping! Plus you get 7-9,000 steps in 1 class shakin it! And I feel like I buy more exercise clothes than real clothes. I also match my shoes and clothes better.
I have a friend on here Sarah, that lent a helping hand this week in regards to my brother. She's a counselor and my brother has been struggling so much and taking it out on my mom. Talking to her really opened my eyes to a lot of things and I shared it with my mom. She gave us some techiques to use when he fights with such hostility. It's hard to not take it personally. But he lost his bestfriend, rock, big form of support when my dad died. I am sure he's very lost. I was close to my dad but not like my brother was. I am sure if my mom died i would be utterly lost as well. She is like an extension of who I am and I think sometimes you are just closer with one parent. Even tho I can't really talk to my brother without a huge fight ensuing, I hate knowing he feels so lost. I wish he would seek help, but I can't see that happening.
TOM is here and I am struggling with eating this week big time. I went to dairy queen for a milk shake this morning at 10:28 am. I asked the girl "Is it legal to serve ice cream at this hour?". She didn't think I was funny.Then I got chinese for dinner, i split it half tho and I have dinner for tomorrow, yay go me! In between two travesties I walked the dogs for 30 minutes and hit a dance class.