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Am I in maintenance?

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

I think I'm in maintenance only I don't know it yet. I've been gaining an losing the same 2-3 pounds since the summer. In reality I am still 2-3 pounds (the same 2-3 pounds) away from my original goal. Now therein lies the problem. Should I still be pushing myself to lose those last three pounds or should I just recognize this as my goal weight and be happy with that. I have knee pain, but unfortunately that is due to osteoarthritis and I don't believe losing more weight will help relieve the pain. I don't have any other health issues so losing more weight will not improve my overall state of wellness. Generally I feel good. I am happy with the way I look in my clothes, I "feel" good about myself, I am able to eat a wide variety of foods, mostly good choices with a few not so healthy choices thrown in there, but they are things that I find comfort in. I get a good amount of daily exercise (on weekends I am usually able to walk longer due to time constraints during the week), I'm sleeping well, my last PE with my doctor showed good lab results so...... why are those last three pounds nagging at me in the back of my mind that I still have to lose three pounds? I keep telling myself it's just a number!! If I didn't have a scale I would feel as though my weight is where it's suppose to be. And these are the types of comments or words of advice I would give to other Sparkfriends when they say they are not happy with their weight. In trying to accept the "number" I've considered not getting on the scale, but that has proven to be my mentor so to say. If the scales starts to creep upwards past what I would consider for myself to be "the danger" zone I know I have to reel myself in, readjust, get back to exercise if I have been being a little to lax and refocus on my eating. I have make a very stern vow to myself that I WILL NOT go back to where I have been so many times before. In January I will be celebrating a one year Spark - a - versary and I do so want it to be a celebration. I want it to be a celebration for a lifetime. Yet I still can feel the fear of failure, of not being that person I want to be, the fear of being in maintenance and not being ready for it. This is the grey area where I have been before.... I'm off the high of losing weight, people don't comment anymore that "Oh you've lost weight; you look great" because now this is my new norm. I can't try on my clothes anymore an revel in the fact that they are too big because now I am wearing mostly clothes that fit. Sometimes I think that's part of the problem. I'm not used to wearing clothes that fit so they actually feel small because they're not baggy so my mind is playing tricks on my saying these are too small you need to lose more weight! They high is gone so I've lost the drive to push, to drink all the water, to track, count calories and I feel like I am setting myself up for failure AGAIN!! I need to find the happy medium, I need to be happy with what I have achieved and MAINTAIN. I need to be able to accept the success I have achieved and be satisfied with that. I am still a work in progress; therefore I am grateful that I have this website and Spark friends who I can turn to for advice, words to the wise, encouragement, support and hope. I so admire all those who struggle and keep pushing and I find strength and comfort in those who have achieved success and still stay on this site to continue to maintain and support others. Thank you Sparks and Spark Friends!! Let's all continue to be present everyday to help, support, encourage, advise, listen, cheer, laugh, cry and do all that we can to be the best we can to ourselves and to eachother.
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CAROLMAID 11/23/2013 10:58AM

    Great Blog!
I can so relate to all of this. I think if your near your goal by only 2-3 lbs and everything else is in place well then YUP! you may have reached the goal of maintenance. Definitely not as Thrilling as the "wow, you look great, did you lose weight? phase" but a great place to be.
Wahoo for you!
I think I have recently figured out that I CAN maintain...that I know how, as my recent break has seemed to have proven! Even without SPARKING daily, that it's just sort of ingrained how to do it....even when my head was saying maybe your overdoing it!
But I have decided that I'm not really close enough to what my idea goal is, that that goal isn't really unrealistic, just proving to be elusive. LOL
Hence my smaller goals plan.
I agree...the people here are great. Whatever the phase you may be in there is someone out there to cheer you on. That's why I'm back.
Congrats to you on your success! May there be many more daily successes!
Happy Thanksgiving a bit ahead of time. Hope you are surrounded by family and friends and yes! even great food!!!! it's what it's all about, right?

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TUDAFD 10/22/2013 9:57PM

    Just saw this blog and wanted to comment. I think I've been in maintenance, too, since May because I've been wanting to lose another 3-5 lbs. and haven't but like you, I'm happy with the way I look, happy with the clothes I'm wearing, etc. I do worry about the weight creeping back on and I use the scale every day to try and keep track of that before it gets completely out of control. I've lost some of the motivation, too, but I did order the spark activity tracker with the hope that it might help in the motivation department. It doesn't help that I'm swamped this time of year with canning, upcoming holidays, kids in school, etc. I guess we should both relax, continue to use this site with our great spark friends, and enjoy the maintenance phase. As you once wrote to me, "thanks for writing this blog!" Let's celebrate and do our best to keep each other in maintenance. emoticon emoticon

P.S. Love the background.

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STR458 10/15/2013 9:49PM

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HAWTGRANNY2014 10/11/2013 7:19AM

    If you are happy with the weight you are at then don't worry about 2 or 3 pound, celebrate and enjoy. I think you should have a maintenance party LOL. Great job! emoticon

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CIROHIO 10/10/2013 9:21PM

    I would go for the maintenance. I know in weight watchers once you hit your goal you are a lifetime member and they give you a few pounds to play with. So MAINTENANCE it is. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/9/2013 8:15PM

    Set your sights on maintenance then and see how you do!

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WHITNEYTEACHER 10/9/2013 1:56PM

    Be happy emoticon The scale is not your friend, it's a tool. I think using it to make sure you're not entering "the danger" zone is smart but worrying about the 3 pounds staring back at you isn't . Where did your goal weight come from? Did you set it yourself based on what you thought was "ideal?" Was it a "recommended" number from a chart in the doctor's office? People aren't carbon copies of each other, I think recommendations are just that, not absolutes. People who are the same height may have different ideal weights because of things like age and body type. If you feel healthy and your doctor agrees then I think you need to work on convincing yourself it's time to celebrate your success. Keep walking and doing your other exercises, that's part of your lifestyle now anyway. Don't worry about an occasional "comfort food," nothing that's truly only once in awhile is going to undo months of work and dedication. So, in my opinion, what you need to do is take a deep breath, relax, pat yourself on the back and begin the celebration. emoticon

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WHITNEYTEACHER 10/9/2013 1:56PM

    Be happy emoticon The scale is not your friend, it's a tool. I think using it to make sure you're not entering "the danger" zone is smart but worrying about the 3 pounds staring back at you isn't . Where did your goal weight come from? Did you set it yourself based on what you thought was "ideal?" Was it a "recommended" number from a chart in the doctor's office? People aren't carbon copies of each other, I think recommendations are just that, not absolutes. People who are the same height may have different ideal weights because of things like age and body type. If you feel healthy and your doctor agrees then I think you need to work on convincing yourself it's time to celebrate your success. Keep walking and doing your other exercises, that's part of your lifestyle now anyway. Don't worry about an occasional "comfort food," nothing that's truly only once in awhile is going to undo months of work and dedication. So, in my opinion, what you need to do is take a deep breath, relax, pat yourself on the back and begin the celebration. emoticon

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