Wednesday, October 09, 2013
Feeling ok. In a weird place today. Hubby has an idea for me to work with him at his office making some phone calls and things. I'm a bit nervous about this. I want to do this but nervous. I haven't worked outside the home in 15 years! Wow! It won't be for about a month or so. My stomach is not great but better. I'm going to watch my lactose as well as gluten and see what happens. I am lactose intolerant so that may be flaring up again. I'll head up soon to shower and get ready for the day. That should help. My mood is so sad lately. I know Adam being a senior is really messing with me. I have to pick out a baby picture for the yearbook today and I can start crying just thinking about it. We've been through so much the past four years. He reminded me that he was a freshman when he came out to us, family and even friends and school! That was quite a year. Now he is going to be recording his audition reel in NYC with a song from the Broadway musical Bare and it is so moving. It just brings me back to where we were 4 years ago. It's hitting me hard. It's so much. I'm so happy for him that he is where he is now but the emotions of all he...we ...went through are very fragile this year. I hope working with Joe will keep me busy and help me through all of this transitioning. So taking it day by day over here. Thank you Sparkies who have been here with me these past 4 years! You are a God sent!