Tuesday, October 08, 2013
in march, we were expecting to be eagerly expecting at this time. the baby decided not to stay. i work with babies, and in the recent weeks, we have had several losses come in to deliver, each eerily at the same gestational week of where we would have been at the time. immediately after finding the baby gone, i had started working on losing weight; that's where i was at when we found we were having another baby: working on losing weight. so after becoming not pregnant again, i started working on it, again. and while i toned up well, the scale was barely moving, my mother became ill, and other stresses ensued. all motivation and energy were gone. it is just now returning. thankfully.
2 days from now. 2 days from now, we would have been joined by another baby. but now we won't. i'm not sure where i'm at with this, or what, if anything i want or need to receive from whom. and right now, i'm stuck at work, when i just want to cuddle with my babies that decided to stay.