Tuesday, October 08, 2013
Got home from work from my new part-time job at about 2am on Monday morning, I had been there about 11hours. Was constantly busy the entire shift. Had an emgenecy about 5mins to the end of my shift which was supposed to be at about 11pm. It was hard because I was already completely exhausted by then. But the nurses all worked together and we all left about 1:30am in the morning which is usual per the amount of work. It really is a great place to work for. I talked to the other nurse I worked with that night and who is around my age and she says the same thing. It is very difficult to be on your feet for 10 hours as you get older. Some I came home and it really hit me. I was in real pain. Took tylenol to no avail. I also did something that I have done in the past to ease pain and insomnia. Eat junk food. So out I went in the middle of the night and got junk food. It didn't ease the pain or make me sleepy. Could not get to sleep all night because of the pain. Was still up in the morning so I went to the pharmacy to get my sleeping medication refilled. Finally about 1pm on Monday afternoon I got to sleep and woke up at 9am on Tues. morning still in a lot of pain. Today, I got back on my healthy eating and tracked my food. Boy, life is a lot more complicated than you think. It was eyeopening to realize that I eat junk food for any number of reasons. Pain, stress, insomnia, grief, anxiety, exhaustion. It is my goto drug. Well, through writing my blog and my journal I am gaining more insights into this unhealthy coping. And the first step to fixing an issue is realizing you have one, or in my case several ;).
But now with sparkpeople, I am using the tool such as tracking, blogging, journaling, reading, visiting to learn more about myself and more about how to make doable changes to improve the quality of my life. Slow and one step and day at a time but progress nevertheless. Years and years of bad habits cannot be changed quickly.
So with each mistake I make, I acknowledge it, write about it, accept it, think about what I might do the next time the same issue comes up, and move on. Sparkpeople is a very valuable resource that we can go to each day to negotiate the issues that got us into unhealthy states in both mind and body. Cheers, Keith