Tuesday, October 08, 2013
Top of the mornin' to ya sparkers. This girl ain't feeling so sparkly right now. Still fightin' this monster head cold. Ugh! But! I got hope I'm in the home stretch now. Hopefully it won't be long til I'm 100% again. And then I can honestly say, "I did my time" and "I had my turn". Cold cold go away and never come this way again!
Ok, truth time. . .
I am an addict!
I easily addict to anything and everything I love.
It really doesn't matter what it is or how bad it might be for me. If it alters how I feel and I like the feeling, then I'm hooked. What's the saying? "Hook, line and sinker"? Yep, that pretty accurately sums it up!
So why "out" myself? Why not just sit here for the next 5, 10, 15, 20 years and keep pretending to be something I'm not? Because "hiding" is what keeps the addict sick. And I don't want to be sick anymore.
So I have no choice but to tell the truth.
I've been on SparkPeople for 114 days now. It started out innocently enough. I Google searched websites that might support my new "Atkins" lifestyle. And SparkPeople came in at the top of the list. So I clicked on the link and before I even knew what was happening, I was getting hooked.
For me, SparkPeople is like a powerful drug. Or is quickly becoming that way. I spend most all of my free time on SP blogging, reading other's blogs, reading e-mails, sending and receiving goodies, reading articles, watching videos, scoring points and on and on it goes. As I do this, life happens all around me - but! I'm not engaged. Because? Because, I'm knee deep in SP and I just can't pull myself away. I've even missed work because of SP! I know. . . not good, not good at all!
Actually, I haven't missed work "because" of SP. Rather, I have missed work because of my inability to "do" SP in moderation. This, I think, is what makes an addict different from a non-addict. The inability to enjoy life in moderation.
So I'm logging off. At least for now. I'll likely be back at some point, but for now I really "need" to pay attention to and participate in my non-cyberspace life.
I wish each and every one of you the best life has to offer. May you realize every goal you set for yourself whether it be weight-loss or some other dream. And last but not least, may you always, always swim down river.
Thank you for touching my life in a very real and personal manner.