Tuesday, October 08, 2013
Today has been a day that in the past I would have totally blown and binged on. Had a lot of "I feel useless" moments at work, which I hate, because I always like to feel like I'm earning my keep. And being helpful. Which I couldn't find very many ways to be, in the morning. The afternoon was better, in that respect. But also, I have been stuck at the same weight for a week now, and I have my tracker set to only lose a pound a week, so I should be OK with that, but I have been hungry and had the desire to munch stuff, and I've resisted the temptation, so I feel like I deserve to have lost that pound I was programed to lose this week!! Right? And then my dad brings me a treat, a king size Snickers bar, that I totally felt like stuffing my face with right then (even though it was only an hour until dinner!) But I didn't. I sat down this evening and programed my Snickers bar (yes, the whole thing!) for the day after tomorrow, because I had already planned my tomorrow's menu. So I'm thankful for my new lifestyle, and the trackers, that really help to keep me from going off the deep end on days like today when I feel grouchy and munchy and not like dieting at all. And I'm thankful for a diet that allows for a Snickers now and then
I feel like I should add an addendum to this, since it's so negative. Now it's the day after I wrote this, and my day went MUCH better! I started off being down to 147.0, so that was super cool. And everything at work went well, the kids behaved, and I felt useful, so it's all good now. My hubby was cranky this morning, but he's alright this evening, so no more negativity!!