Monday, October 07, 2013
A lot of restarting.
Yesterday I wrote two very long entries that dove deep into personal stuff, my son, and my job. First one got blanked out. Waited and tried typing again. Then a full blank out. That's the end of notebook. Something fried the motherboard which lead to a scrambled hard drive. Motherboard will not recognize any hard drive or USB drive at all. Couldn't retrieve hard drive info, not it's a backup to my "kids may borrow" laptop. Currently going through and doing a complete reformat on an old desk top. Lucky for me, I built it well, now I'm just not portable anymore.
Now to those long blogs in a summary form.
Work has been 4 weeks of constant training. I've gone from breakfast buffet, to lunch, to dinner, mixed in room service, started bartending, 2 separate specials pages, a whole new menu, my first raise, and now helping out young servers. WOW- it has been rough.
Son has been very extremely bad rough difficult. And then some. Therapy, school counselor, and that wonderful middle school discipline guy. Finally laid it all out there. Hope for the best on this one. Really don't want him kicked out of school and/or bus.
A giant THANK YOU to everyone who is still checking in and leaving comments for me. The last non-published blogs went into depth why I've been flaking out.
Also gained about 6.2 stress pounds. And that's one more thing to restart.
Double Thank You everyone, Konrad
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Konrad, hang in there. You are going through some tough times ! Give yourself a break too. I hope things improve for you!
1435 days ago
I mean really wow - that is a lot to have going on in the past several weeks. New jobs are always so stressful but I am proud of you for finding this new opportunity and already making so much progress. I hope that things with your son settle down as well, but it will likely take some time. My advice, if you want it, is to find something you enjoy to do positive for yourself over the next several days - even if it is something as simple as a walk for 10 minutes. Do something that is for you. Then breathe - it will get better every day.
1436 days ago
Aw dude. So sorry to hear of such rough stuff. There aren't many comforting words I can share to take away that stress, even though I really wish there was.
All I know is when you're stressed then you eat crap you then feel crappier. My bod feeling out of whack right now b/c of stress eating and not sleeping because of weird work schedules - when you have time to take a breath for yourself you would regather your senses and tell yourself that you must take care of YOU in order to be at your best in order to deal with all these outside situations that are out of your control.
I'm really sorry to hear about your son. i taught middle school for a while. The best lesson I learned about dealing with kids who were going through rough times is to constantly remind them "You're not a bad person; you're just making some bad decisions." Or "...not making very good decisions..." or "you just need to make good decisions" or something along those lines. Hate to be labeled, especially at the middle school age. It's so difficult - I'm hoping all the counseling and such is going to help him get on the right track. What a difficult age - i know I'd never want to go through it again, that's for sure.
Virtual hugs, man.
1444 days ago
I think you are strongly telekinetic like I am my friend. Things just don't go kaput like that. LOL
Ok, I think you are doing the best you can to maintain your sanity in a very full life.
As to your son: I am a very tough disciplinarian. I don't put up with any crap from kids at all. Ask my nephews and nieces. I also love to praise them when they act the way they should. Strong willed and misbehaving children often do not grow up until they have solid lines drawn in stone and consequences if they go over it. Not punitive consequences, but consequences just the same. We all need to feel the effects of our decisions. Life is a you-know-what and we all need to see that while growing up.
You are doing the best you can with all you have in your life. Give yourself a big hug.
Now, about the weight gain: how did that happen? Truly just want to know. Did you try to comfort eat? That works doesn't it? NOT!
You'll get them off in no time as soon as you focus on your program.
1444 days ago
Comment edited on: 10/11/2013 8:33:56 AM
Konrad, I wondered why I wasn't hearing from you! Our computer contracted some sort of virus we couldn't get rid of (Homeland Security blocked our computer....or so it said. Some sort of idiocy from India. Then they want you to pay a $400 fine for misuse of your computer. We didn';t pay it of course...scam big time!!!) So I wasn't on either for several days until the computer Dr. could get it fixed.
I am a middle school teacher by trade (on disability because of a horrible car accident, but miss the little buggers none the less!) It's a tough age, Konrad. There's so much going on in the heads, their bodies, their HORMONES!!! They say they grow now as much as they did when they were babies, but it's all inside so you don't notice it as much! I know your job has your working like crazy, but spending Father/Son time may just help immensely. Can you find a hobby to do with him? Would he enjoy working out? A lot of middle school boys do! Schedule at least 1 special time a week with him if you can.
Also, those stress pounds, Konrad....just be glad you are a guy! They come off all the easier for you! You've got this, Spark Buddy! ~Cathy ps-congrats on the raise!
1445 days ago
Hang in there!
1446 days ago
That does sound like a rough month!
With your son, the best I can offer is: do the best you can, be there when he needs you, and keep on trucking. I recently saw the other end of the kid who was kicked out of schools: it doesn't always end in heartache. The Boy was one of those really frustrating kids for teachers (kicked out of 3 schools), but he's turned out more than ok! In fact, he's more patient/tolerant/unjudgemental than I am; by a long shot. There's hope around the corner.
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming!
1446 days ago
It stinks how easy it is to gain weight =[ but Nice job on the raise. You deserve it. Sorry to hear about the son going through some tough times. Good luck to you & him! Also, sorry to hear about the broken compy!!!
1447 days ago
Sorry to hear that you've been experiencing so much stress lately. I hope things get better for you soon and just remember that when things get tough, one of the few things that's within our control is our ability to manage our own health. Sure, you might not be able to work out as long or as often as you'd like to when you're very busy, but you can still do your best to stay on top of your eating and other healthy habits. It's not the time to expect perfection from yourself, but continuing to do those things can be a big help when you're not feeling 100% and life throws you a few curveballs. Believe me, I know.
You're a strong man and I know you'll be able to push through this. Hang in there and keep your eyes on the prize.
1447 days ago
Hang in there, it's a tough period but I'm sure it's gonna be better soon!
1447 days ago
That's a LOT of stress...one thing on top of another...best of luck to you!
Restart is good, refresh, renew, refocus. Congrats on the job stuff, that sounds like a good stress, and hope your son works things out, it sounds like he has the right support.
1447 days ago
It sounds like you have a LOT going on right now. I hope your son gets all the help he needs. It's hard raising kids that need help. My son has special needs, and it's an ongoing battle. And the computer dying just added insult to injury... One day at a time my friend. Stress gain... I totally get that, but you'll get it back off.
1447 days ago
Sounds like you have a lot going on. I hope things go well for your son.
1 day, 1 choice at a time.
1448 days ago
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