Monday, October 07, 2013
Interesting day and gosh did I beat a challenge!
Where do I start?
I had breakfast - a scrambled egg with some cheese and coffee. It's all good.
Lunch - we went out for Indian and while I think I stuck with the best choices (about 1/4 cup daal, 1/2 cup vegetarian curry, 1/2 cup palak paneer, 3oz baked fish) I also had a slice of naan. Yum.
So of course dinner comes. DH wants beef stew. Yikes! So I decided to make deconstructed stew. Basically it's beef, mushrooms in gravy, mashed potatoes and boiled carrots. All cooked separately. When it came time to eat dinner, I decided to NOT have ANY of it other than carrots. I nuked a Weight Watchers 200 calorie turkey medalions & gravy and had that with carrots. WHEW!!!! Now this may seem like a small feat but you have to understand, I make amaaazzzing beef stew. But I after my lunch I decided to have a light dinner. I snacked on some raw snap peas this afternoon, too. I am really proud of my choice. DH at first was a little put off that we didn't eat the same meal, but he was fine quickly and let it go. I simply can't eat like he does. I know I could have "some" but I'd rather not have any and simply avoid the feeling like 'oh I shouldn't have eaten that." I have promised myself to do well this week and so far yes! I've done it! Yes!
So this is good. One thing I have learned over the months of this journey is that we do have choices. Just because the food is in front of us, it doesn't mean we have to eat it. We're all far more powerful than a stupid few bites of food. Does it matter if it makes someone else uncomfortable or puts them out because THEY want us to eat it? No. Our bodies are our bodies, not someone else's. When DH brings home chips, fudge, etc., do I have to eat it? Do I have to care if he eats it? He doesn't force me to eat it, so..I won't. Simple as that.
Food challenges are tough. They're real. But no one can fight the battle for us and NO ONE and nothing is to blame for our ultimate choice of what we do and do not eat.
I love my Sparkfriends, especially one in particular who I know understands me on a particular level. I'll be forever grateful for the reminders that I am worthy, that I can do this, and that I am not alone.