Monday, October 07, 2013
Here's a wonderfully weird but true thought - I have been to a grocery store once in the past 2 weeks and I won't need to go for at least another week and when I do it will just be a few household necessities and the only 2 food items on my grocery list is cottage cheese and lemon juice! Other than that there are 4 other items only. What did I used to spend over $100 a week on and sometimes I'd go twice a week!!?? Those grocery stores are like a hole in my wallet. The past fortnight at the markets I have only spent $70 on fresh produce and I still have 1.5 weeks of fresh food left to consume! My strategy to view the grocery shop specials catalogs online has paid off considerably. The first week I did it, I created a shopping list from it and stuck to it. The 2nd and 3rd weeks I looked at the cataloger online and nothing really took my fancy so I didn't visit the store. So there has been a major success there.
Now I just need to adjust how I manage my market shopping because I do buy too much - my strategy here is that next week I'll go with a fruit and veg list and ONLY buy from that. So far I've never taken a list and just buy like crazy because it is all so cheap!
I'm very fortunate that I live in a semi-tropical climate in Australia so most things can be grown all year round. We always have an abundance to choose from when it comes to fruit and veg.
I started to think of the only other hoarding area in my life and that is my clothing - I thought up a strategy yesterday on how to deal with this. I would make 3 piles consisting of 1) the clothing I'll keep 2) the clothing I'll give away and 3) the clothing I haven't decided what to do with yet. I figure that way at least I can get rid of one pile once I go through them and I'm closer to getting rid of the 2nd pile.
So in my mind I had one top I had hanging up that I know I don't want to keep so I thought I'd start there - well I found the top, pulled it out to put in my 'don't want' pile and then I couldn't let it go - my hand clutched it like it was life of death and my mind was saying 'don't get rid of that, you only need to lose a few pounds and it will fit, it's not that bad, you liked it when you bought it, you haven't even worn it yet, give it a chance, it cost you such and such amount, just keep it for a little while longer!!;.
So then I promptly felt that feeling of being emotionally overwhelmed rise up in me and I put it straight back in the cupboard and shut the cupboard and thought 'I can't do this!!!!'. It's like each piece of clothing has a voice and speaks to me and there is ALWAYS a reason why I can't part with it.
So with my new stress buster challenge and healthy lifestyle in mind I calmly got a herbal tea and sat on the couch and thought about a new strategy for this area - one that won't overwhelm me and one that I can achieve and will make me make some progress in this area.
I need to also keep in mind that I AM determined this time to change my life and lose weight and I've proved that already to myself that I can do this, so with that said here is my strategy.
I am lucky to have a number of hanging space areas in my wardrobes. Yesterday I took the first step of my strategy and cleared a space so there is nothing there. Now each time I wear an outfit it is getting washed and going back into that empty space in my wardrobe. My thinking is if I'm wearing it now, then obviously I love it and feel comfortable in it etc. My plan is to try and wear different things that I like so I don't pick again from items going back into that empty space where possible. Also if there is an outfit that I just KNOW that I want to keep I'll automatically put it into that new 'keep' section. These will be items that I don't wear that often, maybe a special event, or wedding etc.
This way I figure at least I'll have one large section of clothing going into the 'keep' section without any major decisions being made by me.
That only leaves the rest which I plan to a) categorise by size b) categorise by type i.e. work, formal, smart casual, casual etc and put these into different sections in my wardrobe.
I know I'll be able to deal with all this a bit later when I reach my weightloss goal as by then at least 1/3 of my wardrobe will be too big and will go straight to charity.
I also have a suitcase of my absolute favourite clothes (sizes 10-12) in the garage - when I put on weight I went through my wardrobe and put away my favourites and then gave the rest to charity. SO at least I have a whole wardrobe to fit back into of clothes that I love so that is something to really look forward to as well !!
I know I CAN and WILL beat this and I've found a strategy that will make progress, but not overwhelm me and I'm actually excited to start so somehow I've turned a negative into a positive! My first load of washing goes on today and then straight into that empty space!
This system is also challenging me to start to wear clothes that I haven't worn that often and if I am not able to then they will automatically go into the 'do not want' pile - simple.
It's that same psychological behavior of hoarding things to myself - just like I'm psychologically hoarding the fat to my body, I'm physically hoarding the clothes in my wardrobe and the food in my pantry (both these items are associated to body weight in a metaphysical kind of way). Once I deal with these two areas and are free from them I know they will no longer be subconsciously blocking my weight-loss.
I love this journey!