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Moving Forward


Monday, October 07, 2013

A lot of things happened this past month . I finally woke up and saw the light and told my self you are stronger than this . I am . It may have taken a few food binge moments and more than a few shopping trips and a heck of a lot of self dout but I can say I am okay now . emoticon

I am starting to catch up with old friends via text, kik and through instagram and just talking on the phone . I am not ready to hang out with anybody yet . Though I would need to buy clothes since my ex trashed my clothes. emoticon
All I have is my work clothes and whatever else made it home with me .

A breakup is hard do recover from but not impossible. I have to spend so much money to cancel his phone line which I have another payment to make and I had to struggle with forgiving my self but ignoring the moments I should have walked away .

I can admit now that the relationship was toxic from the get go . When somebody tells you that your eating healthy habits and workout habits are messing up the relationship , YOU HAVE TO RUN !! emoticon

I honestly miss being vegetarian .

Today is day 1 of getting back into my vegetarian lifestyle emoticon
For breakfast I had 2 pieces of ezekiel cinnamon raisin bread. I probably could of ate just one but I ate 2 and I got a mason jar of green tea that i am working on .

I'm going to do a 30 min cardio workout before work .

The big lesson I learned .
I will no longer let somebodys opinion affect me. I will continue to do whats best for me and work towards being healthy . I no longer want to be around negative people because they really only bring you down and you cant change anybody . No matter how hard you want too , you just cant.
I deserve to be happy and it wont be over night but every step towards something positive is a step towards happiness.

I hope everybody is having a great monday , today is my friday .

thank you to all who give me positive advice and who inspire me to keep pushing
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HEALTHYSLIM2 10/17/2013 2:23PM

    emoticon Sorry I didn't see this sooner, as I was away and then slowly catching up with people's blogs.
emoticon You said it all right here.
You deserve to be happy, live a good life surrounded only by people who truly love and appreciate you. If the relationship you are no longer in ended with him trashing your clothes (OMG - who would do that?!), leaving you with bills to pay, etc - in addition to all the other things you have shared along the way, then YES, he was toxic without a doubt. You are heading in the right direction now, though.
By loving yourself first, taking care of your health and being the awesome person you are, you open door to someone who will be able to see your heart. And your heart is nothing but beautiful. emoticon

emoticon emoticon Just keep on the path, one foot in front of the other. If you 'mess up' or stumble along the way, remember that is normal and that you are not alone. Be your own cheerleader, or come to SP to get some motivation.
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It is clear to me that you will end 2013 STRONG and you are well on your way to your goals. All of them.
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READY4CHANGE81 10/7/2013 8:05PM

    You do deserve to be happy! It is easy for others to give advice and say what they would do in the situation, but until you are there it can be truly devastating. Great job recognizing what an amazing person you are and that you do deserve to be happy! Keep reaching out to your friends and taking care of you! You're worth it! emoticon

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EG8383 10/7/2013 4:47PM

  you said something so important. You deserve to be happy and YOU will be happy now that you are moving on. Sometimes we don't want to hear or see the truth but once we do and we accept them for what they are it's so much easier to move forward and truely begin to be happy again. I hope you enjoy your Friday. Keep doing you and smile! =)

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BABYSOX 10/7/2013 4:00PM

    It sounds like you are moving forward in a healthy direction both physically and emotionally. I wish you a success journey.

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