A lot of things happened this past month . I finally woke up and saw the light and told my self you are stronger than this . I am . It may have taken a few food binge moments and more than a few shopping trips and a heck of a lot of self dout but I can say I am okay now .
I am starting to catch up with old friends via text, kik and through instagram and just talking on the phone . I am not ready to hang out with anybody yet . Though I would need to buy clothes since my ex trashed my clothes.
All I have is my work clothes and whatever else made it home with me .
A breakup is hard do recover from but not impossible. I have to spend so much money to cancel his phone line which I have another payment to make and I had to struggle with forgiving my self but ignoring the moments I should have walked away .
I can admit now that the relationship was toxic from the get go . When somebody tells you that your eating healthy habits and workout habits are messing up the relationship , YOU HAVE TO RUN !!
I honestly miss being vegetarian .
Today is day 1 of getting back into my vegetarian lifestyle
For breakfast I had 2 pieces of ezekiel cinnamon raisin bread. I probably could of ate just one but I ate 2 and I got a mason jar of green tea that i am working on .
I'm going to do a 30 min cardio workout before work .
The big lesson I learned .
I will no longer let somebodys opinion affect me. I will continue to do whats best for me and work towards being healthy . I no longer want to be around negative people because they really only bring you down and you cant change anybody . No matter how hard you want too , you just cant.
I deserve to be happy and it wont be over night but every step towards something positive is a step towards happiness.
I hope everybody is having a great monday , today is my friday .
thank you to all who give me positive advice and who inspire me to keep pushing