Monday, October 07, 2013
I want to be someone who blogs every day, but most days I don't have the patience to put my thoughts and feelings together coherently for someone else to read. That's why this blog is almost a month later than the last one.
But I am celebrating today. Here is what I'm celebrating:
1. I have been training successfully for my 10k
2. This weekend I cut 2 minutes off my 5k time (walking a totally flat route)
3. My goal was to lose 15 pounds before my birthday next week, and I'm already at 18
4. I need to lose 4.5 pounds to no longer be in the "obese" bmi category!
5. I have lost 87.5 lbs since December 30 and I'm still going strong
6. I am traveling for the next three weekends, and have already started planning ahead.
7. My pants are all too baggy for me, so no more sizes in the 20's. Over the weekend I had to buy new underwear (TMI, sorry!) and am down four sizes! And I'm wearing XL t-shirts for working out and feel comfortable in them.
8. The number on the scale I saw yesterday hasn't been seen by my eyes since my second year in graduate school, more than 10 years ago. It feels so great!
I'm sure there are other things that I am celebrating, but right now that feels like a good list. When I started this journey I created rewards for myself for every ten pounds, but now those rewards are not as important as how I'm feeling. I'm getting healthy and that feels like a great reward for myself. But I am going to splurge this coming weekend on an outfit for my upcoming 10k. I have never owned real work-out specific clothes, but I know I need something that will keep me warm and won't keep sweat on my skin. So I'm using that as my reward, and birthday gift to myself. Seems fitting right?
I was talking to a friend yesterday about having my life together. Don't get me wrong, my life is far from where I'd like it to be, but for the first time since college, I feel like I'm moving in the right direction. I would still like to have more money, and to get rid of one colleague at work, but all in all, things are good. I'm active. I'm healthier. And I'm just happier. Nothing better than that. Then I had to explain to my friend that she might now have her life where she wants it yet, but she's seven years younger than me, so she has plenty of time...:)
The one thing I miss right now in my life is someone to share it with, my prince charming. But I know that right now focusing on myself is best for me. And if I don't find that right person, or have someone to have kids with, or to come home to at night, the way my life is right now, it's okay with me. I am spending more time with positive people around me, people who encourage me, support me and truly love me unconditionally. I love it!
It has not been easy for me to get where I am today, and as we all know, there are no "secrets" to getting healthy. I was talking to one of my students last week. She was asking about my secret. What she was getting to was that she has started to take an over the counter pill to help her lose weight. Maybe it will work for her, but it wasn't something that I encouraged her to do. She has kids at home, and she needs to get healthy for them, but taking a pill won't replace healthy foods and exercise. I hope things work for her, but honestly, I saw myself about ten years ago, when I thought I was fat and was looking for a fast fix as well.
It's amazing how my outlook on everything has changed over the past ten months. I plan my weekends around 5k events, am enjoying the training for the 10k and have even daydreamed about walking a half-marathon someday. I am looking forward to buying work out clothes, and have started to consider that I might be able to wear a size L t-shirt/shirts someday. That didn't seem possible just last December. My 33rd year has changed everything for me, more specifically, I have changed everything for me. I am looking forward to what my next challenge will be and what new things I will learn though sparkpeople.
Thank you for all of your support, encouragement and for teaching me so much already this year. If I have changed this much in ten months, who will I be a year from now? I can't wait to find out!