Saturday, October 05, 2013
It's been a while. About 3 weeks now. I'm still in a lot of pain. It's this cold sore outbreak. Usually I can manage them, and they are gone within a week. This one's been on my face for two weeks now, and it's going on to three. Some area's are clearing up - not completely gone but no where near as painful as it has been. Other areas are still keeping me up at nights. Just breathing causes so much pain and burning. I was up all night again last night.
It hurts to eat or drink. It leads to tearing of the scabs and oozing all over again. I didn't realize it until recently, but I've actually gotten to the point I'm not really eating or drinking. Hubby is doing his best to keep me fed.
I feel like one large exposed nerve right now. Even the slightest itch causes me pain. Even when it's not on my face or anywhere near the sores.
I've been coping with a high level of pain for far too long now. That's why I am overly sensitive to everything right now. That and lack of sleep.
I need to find my way back to health. Not just healing from these sores. Drinking water. Eating right. And running. I haven't been able to do it yet. I'm going to have to start to work on it.
Tomorrow I have a day off. So does Hubby. He's been working 6 - 10 hour days for the past week. It's going to continue until after our trip to NY. I need to make sure to help him take care of things he needs to do/have done on his one day off. I also have some baking to do. I have some more orders for my gluten free baking. I have 2 dozen perogies, 2 dozen cinnamon buns, and 2 dozen pumpkin cheesecake muffins. Hubby would also like some saurkraut perogies. I'm not sure if I've got enough time to do those too, but I'll try.
Oh. For anyone who's been following my blogs, the issues I had at work last month have come full circle. The family that I had to give up - I definitely didn't want to - I have back starting Monday. I am beyond frustrated with my boss because of this entire messy thing. I'm keeping a log of all this "stuff" that's been going on. I'm getting sick of feeling like my boss is lying to me on a regular basis, then twisting things to make herself look good up the ladder. Anyhow, I'm going to shut my mouth, smile, and pretend it's all good. Right now, I'm overly sensitive in all areas of my life. Surprise, surprise.
So I really need to focus on the small things. I'm thinking 8 glasses of water tomorrow. And a short run. Even just 1mile. Just to get out and get moving again.