Saturday, October 05, 2013
As a begin to look down the road of life, knowing that my 28th birthday is just a few months away I have become more aware of my health. I have not been living as healthfully as I should be. Often opting to forego getting up the few minutes early to make sure I have a healthy breakfast at home and a lunch packed before rushing off to work. Instead, stopping for the junk that a drive-thru affords in about the same time as I could make it myself. I have felt my body begin to get more and more sluggish from this and many other poor decisions I make on a daily basis. From not getting enough sleep, leading me to oversleep and not have any time in the morning, to finding a plethora of excuses for why relaxing on the couch watching tv is in my better interest than going for a run.
I have been reading a few blog posts lately from those who have lost 75+ lbs and what they learned and gained in the process. One author, Vivia, said that no one told her she could become depressed over the loss of her former lifestyle. As I read her account, it struck me that I am in that phase now - one problem thoughÖ.. I havenít lost any weight. The idea of not being able to do the things that I like (lounging, eating, drinking) anymore - or at least not in the manor or quantity that I am currently used to. I am afraid of having to create a new normal - a healthier version of normal. ó there I said it, I donít know if I feel relieved about verbalizing it but keeping this realization to myself if not getting me very far.
It is actually really scary for me to be putting all of this out there. I have a very vulnerable feel about this as it is my struggle, a very personal struggle for me. I donít like feeling lethargic, incapable, and unsexy - in fact I HATE it! What I canít figure out is why, then, havenít I been able to motivate myself to change, let go of this vicious cycle, and embrace the hard work that is going to have to go into making me a healthy, active, capable, strong, and sexy woman.
I have decided that the remainder of my 27th year on this earth and all of my 28th year will be dedicated to changing my lifestyle and habits. Making changes in my life for me, to feel better, move freely, and become the woman I know I can be. I donít want to leave my 20ís like I left my teens - fat, unhappy, and unwilling to change. I want to end my 20ís with a new lease on life and looking forward to what my 30s, 40s, 50s, and beyond have in store for me.
If there is anything else that the other bloggessí have taught me - itís that it is never to late to make a change because there is no better time than now and life isnít going to offer up a glassy, smooth sea to sail everyday.
Hereís to health and loving myself. **Cheers**