Saturday, October 05, 2013
I have decided it is not fair.
This week I did really well. I have worked out 5 days. I am going for consistently and not length so some workouts are 20 minutes long. That is what I have time for on my break. I am investigating other ways I can sneak in more time during my lunch break. I can tell my body is increasing it's endurance.
I have even been eating fruit for dessert. Actually, more fruit and veggies overall. Probably at least on three different occasions my boyfriend and I had salad. I was planning on it for just myself. Figured he wouldn't want one. He totally surprised me and said he'd have one as well. He even had one when I wasn't there, haha.
So, if I am making these strides, WHY am I NOT losing weight?
I have a pair of pants that I wear alot because they fit me alright without making me feel "fat". I have two other pairs that sometimes they can be a little snug. Today I put on the khakis and I wasn't sure if they were going to be buttoned. Guess this means I gained weight and just when I was thinking my pants that I wear alot and t-shirts were looser. It really is frustrating and depressing.
I could weight myself but the numbers on the big, bad scale really make me crabby all day so I had my boyfriend put my scale on a shelf I can't weight. A benefit of dating someone over 6' when you are 5'4", haha. I wanted to weigh myself today but I didn't. Because I couldn't reach, lol.
It was probably a good thing, too, I couldn't reach. Yesterday I could tell my pants weren't fitting me right and so I was like well, I guess it doesn't matter if I have some ice cream. I mean, I have trying to eat more fruit rather than go for ice cream. And, I have GAINED weight. This is what happens. I see no progress and I am forget this.
By the way, before you say to count calories, I am forgoing this because I get too upset if I go over. I want to focus on positive goals - like how many times I work out a week or eating fruit for dessert.
I am trying hard to not derail myself. Today is a day off for exercise but tomorrow back to it. I even brought fruit into work for my "dessert" during lunch.
Anyhow, that is my struggle right now.