Friday, October 04, 2013
I've had a very upsetting couple of days. It's a complicated story that I don't want to go into, but the short version is that we lost a lot of our digital photos off our computer, mostly of our kids. I've gone back and forth between being really angry and being really sad/depressed. I was really teary about it this morning. I know in the grand scheme of things, it's not that big of a deal. But I'm having a hard time with it. After moping around the house, I thought a walk might help cheer me up. It was the LAST thing I felt like doing. I wanted to curl up under a blanket on the couch. But I forced myself to get out the door.
I'm participating in a BLC challenge where I get maximum points for getting 60 minutes of exercise today, and I figured it would just make me more depressed to not get any points at all. So I walked for an hour (5k). I thought it would help clear my mind, let me get some perspective, etc. Unfortunately, it didn't. I was still just as upset while walking as I had been at home. I guess I shouldn't expect it to be a magic cure. But at least I did something productive while being upset...that's definitely not typical for me. And at least I won't feel like I fell off the wagon.
So, like my title suggested - the walk didn't really help, but it didn't hurt either.