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Thursday, October 03, 2013

Wow. Just... wow. I don't know what else to say about this week. Sunday and Monday went well... and after that, the week took a really wrong turn. First there's the part that was totally in my control -- I have not made good food choices. I definitely haven't eaten as much as I could have under these circumstances, but I have eaten too much, and all the wrong stuff.

And then there's the second part of the equation that I can't seem to figure out -- the fatigue. I have had no energy all week, and it keeps getting worse. I struggled to walk with The Buddy on Sunday, but I did it. Monday at the park with dh was even harder, and that's the last exercise I've had. All I want to do is lay and sleep. I go to bed early, I sleep late, and sometimes nap on top of it. Last night I went to bed at 10:15 pm, got up at 10 am, went to therapy and back to bed at noon, then awake again at 1 to go to the store and get food. I realized how bad this lack of energy thing is when I was so tired I didn't even want to keep eating at the Chinese place, I just wanted to curl up under the table and sleep. I think that may officially be the first time in my life I would have preferred sleeping to eating.

BUT, it's time to be done coddling myself. I thought maybe I was working out harder than my body was ready for... after not working out for 3 days I'm still just as tired, or more tired. I thought maybe I was getting sick, but other than the exhaustion, I'm fine. So it's time to just suck it up and push through. Once I get a good night's sleep tonight, no excuses tomorrow. Back at the healthy eating, and back out there running from some Zombies. I refuse to let this be the beginning of a weeks or months long backslide. It has been a few days, babying myself has not yielded anything except the further desire to baby myself. So now it's time for some tough love!

Oh, and to all of you that have left comments and notes and Goodies -- thank you SO MUCH! Knowing some of you guys are looking for me is the main reason I'm here right now. It means so much that there are people out there that care. The buck stops here -- when I wake up tomorrow morning, I'm back and going strong just like I was when I went to bed Monday night.

What else what else... well lets have some photos...

First photo: Consistency calendar results at the end of September. The top one is not eating in the middle of the night, and the bottom one is working out.

Next is the photo I snapped out the window of the waiting room when I was at the opthalmologist on Tuesday...

And last are the two critters I bought for Halloween today...

And now I'm going to lay down and read for a bit until it's time to take my pills and shots, then go to bed and get up with my mojo intact in the morning. Hope everyone has had a great week!

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    Stick with in, you're doing great! emoticon
    1627 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    I think you have something else going on under the skin tootsie. Have you been tested for pernicious anemia? Some people just do not absorb iron correctly and have to take supplements, My DD does. Or chronic fatigue syndrome. Nobody should be that tired all of the time.. I wasn't that bad when I was pregnant!!

    It can be something very simple, BUT blood work is required. IMHO you could be having something like that..
    1628 days ago
    Keep going. Oh, one thought on the fatigue...did you get checked for iron levels? Anemia can be easy to get and the fatigue levels are brutal.
    1628 days ago
  • SAM_I_AM_2K
    I'm glad you took some time off - if nothing else, it showed you that it wasn't over exercising and you weren't getting sick. AND, good for you saying, "ok, enough... time to move again'!

    You can SO do this!
    1628 days ago
  • JO88BAKO
    Oh yes, I forgot LOL. The name of that pasta is Dreamfield, not Deerfield. Low glycemic index and only 5 digestable carbs per serving
    1629 days ago
  • JO88BAKO
    Good evening! Sounds like you have had an up and down week. Sometimes when I am really tired and have no energy I make myself do some kind of exercise - even if it's just walk. That seems to give me energy. You are doing a great job staying in bed, that's great!! Hope you have a good night. Tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to make the right choices. I know you can do it!!
    1629 days ago
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