Thursday, October 03, 2013
I've come to accept the fact that my old "dieting" habits were never sustainable and therefore, it's no surprise that I couldn't maintain all the weight that I managed to lose. I talked to a friend of mine at work, a co-worker who is also a personal trainer. Talking to him made me realize that: I was doing it all wrong.
I skipped breakfast, at times lunch and did not eat until later in the day. And by product, I was gaining weight and giving my metabolism a roller coaster ride. I was also under eating when I originally managed to lose the weight - I was obsessed with sticking to 1200 calories, although going up to the upper end of my range would probably have still resulted in weight loss...even more sustainable weight loss perhaps.
It finally hit me that this isn't about LOSING WEIGHT through DIETING. It's about changing my LIFESTYLE, being KIND to myself and body and learning the proper "normal" way to eat. Two days in and I've managed to have 4 reasonably sized meals so far including snacks and breakfast. And I feel great...I'm sticking to my calories range and I'm not starving. Allowing myself to eat more has encouraged me to change my mindset of eating less throughout the day and "saving calories" for dinner. No wonder I binged at night...I was hungry the entire day.
Last night, I came home and was STILL full from all I managed to eat. But made myself eat dinner nonetheless. Then had a protein shake. I can't believe I'm eating so much...And yet, sticking to my range. I guess food quality is linked to food quantity. I can have a lot more of the good stuff (1550 calories) than a little of the bad stuff (one cinnabon).
Maybe this isn't about changing my body. Maybe this is about changing my mindset.