Thursday, October 03, 2013
On October 5th it will be 7 months since my dad passed away. That means I am 5 months away from dealing with my first birthday since losing him. If you haven't been my sparkfriend long I will fill you in. On my 31st birthday (March 5th) my dad passed away. There are blogs about it, also back in February when he got really sick. It has been a hard thing to deal with, not only losing him but also losing him on my birthday. I have struggled these months trying to figure out how I am going to deal with the day itself. I usually love working on my birthday..I not so secretly love the attention! Next year I will not be at work. My best friend has made plans to come up and be with me. I am sure my hubby will take the day off as well. It will get figured out.
I have cried and prayed a lot. To be honest I just don't understand why it had to be that day, of all 365 days in the year why did it have to be March 5th??!! Maybe in time The Lord will reveal the purpose to me...maybe not. I may have to wait until Heaven to find out why.
For now I am trying to process this year of firsts, Father's Day, various holidays, and his birthday (10/15). On the 5th (Saturday) I am walking with our YMCA team for the local Heart Walk. I think it will be a hard thing but a good thing also. When I signed up for the walk I didn't put two and two together until a few weeks later. I will be thinking of him the entire time!
To lighten this heavy post here is a funny picture of him and I: