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Thursday, October 03, 2013

It's not ok that I am choosing food and alcohol to decompress. (I don't even drink unless depressed)

My MIL is home from the hospital, and I feel all the relief of that, but it's translating into "let me let everything go that I've been trying to hold together for the last few days."

Started the day with an appointment for myself at my psychiatrist. He agreed that I am having depression since the beginning of September, starting a week after ending my expensive medicine. Right when I went to my parents'. He said I probably felt better the beginning of this week while having to rise to the occasion of the emergency with my MIL. We decided it's time to try the alternate medicine. I'm worried I will have side effects, which are common in the beginning of taking a psych med. I don't want those. But it wouldn't do anyone any good for me to get into a suicidal cycle with my bipolar, now would it!

So I'm catching this early and hopefully I'll be doing well by the time we go to Hawaii. Looks like maybe we will go the beginning of November. Hubby and myself. We have yet to solidify plans.

MIL is doing really well. Still on soft foods. But forming most words with some slurring and little hesitation. Some drooling. Her daughter is staying with her. Thank you for all your well wishes and prayers.
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    wishing you the very best, honey. Take care of yourself, so that you can take care of others.

    Love, Ginger
    1626 days ago
  • LARISSA238
    *hugs* I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts!
    1626 days ago
  • XRSIZE18
    Sending you some warmth today! I hope you feel it. Your Spark community cares about you! Take care of yourself and do what's best for you.
    1626 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Glad to hear that your MIL is improving. I hope your new medication helps you.
    Hawaii in Nov. sounds wonderful.

    1626 days ago
    Glad to hear your MIL is doing well. Compliments for moving through these tough times the way you do. I hope the trip to Hawaii will do you good.
    1626 days ago
  • POPSY190
    Good news about your MIL. Now you need to concentrate on what is best for you and your husband. emoticon
    1626 days ago
    Glad your MIL is doing well. Try the new med, and if it doesn't work, you may have to go back on the expensive one. What is more important than you feeling and doing well? Take care of yourself! emoticon
    1627 days ago
    1627 days ago
    I second and third the opinions already given. You have become so strong in the last few months. Just focus on this hour and then move forward to the next hour taking the best care of yourself that you know how!

    You rose the occasion of your MIL's emergency, now rise to the occasion of taking care of yourself. I have faith in you.

    1627 days ago
  • _JODI404

    So many things here.

    I'm really glad that your MIL is out of the hospital and doing really well considering how much worse it all could have been. What divine intervention that you were tapped to call her that day!!

    I am really sorry to hear that you are battling with depression. Knowing this is really important though so that you can treat it. Don't let fear stop you from moving forward and doing what is best for you so that you can live your best life possible. Hopefully you will have a good experience with the alternate medicine and it will work well for you since the other one is so expensive. I'm glad you went to the Doctor, especially now while you are in the midst of so much going on.

    Try to make the best choices possible for yourself today. Don't look beyond today right now. Just look at today, and decide what is good for you and what is not good for you. Just do the best you can do in taking care of yourself. If you need rest, and if you can -- nap or sleep. Be with your husband, allow him to help you through this stressful time. There are many ways to decompress -- see if you can create a list of alternatives -- feel good things besides comfort food or alcohol.

    I am continuing to keep you & your family in my thoughts and prayers.

    Sending a hug & love,
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1627 days ago
    Try not to worry about things that are not in your control. Your worrying will not change the outcome and will just get you upset.
    1627 days ago
    Stay strong
    1627 days ago
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