Thursday, October 03, 2013
It's not ok that I am choosing food and alcohol to decompress. (I don't even drink unless depressed)
My MIL is home from the hospital, and I feel all the relief of that, but it's translating into "let me let everything go that I've been trying to hold together for the last few days."
Started the day with an appointment for myself at my psychiatrist. He agreed that I am having depression since the beginning of September, starting a week after ending my expensive medicine. Right when I went to my parents'. He said I probably felt better the beginning of this week while having to rise to the occasion of the emergency with my MIL. We decided it's time to try the alternate medicine. I'm worried I will have side effects, which are common in the beginning of taking a psych med. I don't want those. But it wouldn't do anyone any good for me to get into a suicidal cycle with my bipolar, now would it!
So I'm catching this early and hopefully I'll be doing well by the time we go to Hawaii. Looks like maybe we will go the beginning of November. Hubby and myself. We have yet to solidify plans.
MIL is doing really well. Still on soft foods. But forming most words with some slurring and little hesitation. Some drooling. Her daughter is staying with her. Thank you for all your well wishes and prayers.