Thursday, October 03, 2013
feels like a century since i have written here. my long uphill battle continues. i decided to just stay off the wagon for a long while. the wagon is looooong gone, but i am slowly making my way up the hill. it's been a battle. i actually told myself to quit trying and just use food as my solace - until my clothes starting getting tight again. i have been really worn out from my working environment. things finally crashed on September 4th and i made a monumental decision to not let this place kill me. i made a decision to remove myself from the people that were poisoning me and while they still attempt to do so, i am continually using my powers of mind over matter to shield myself from their poison. i have also decided to use exercise and wellness as my solace. when i feel overwhelmed, just pull on my jacket and go for a walk. it doesn't have to be a fast walk unless i choose it to be. i can walk with one of my friends in the building or i can go alone.
the choice is mine. while they may attempt to stop me from doing that too, then i will close the door to my office and do sit ups or push ups off my desk or something to get my energy back.
This is my motto for the month of October: