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Thursday, October 03, 2013

I am not sure at the moment where I am at, I seem to be all over the place with no real focus, not even sure how I got here. Or how I will leave where I am.
I feel like everyone expects something from me, and when its not done,, I feel I have let them down, with the exception of 2 real good friends, one whom I love our facebook chats, and the other, we go out to visit her mum, and just have fun together. My problem at the moment it seems is my family and one friend, who just expect, the other night my youngest son got mad at me because I had put the bacon on the bottom shelf of the fridge and not in a container, oh man, I think he has some OCD tendencies, the other son I understand, he is not a problem he has just moved home and has not had a chance to unpack or settle in, as he just gets home and his work texts to say he is on standby which means there is a boat for him to go out on. So sadly he has to go.
I think I just need time to unwind and do nothing, maybe my kitchen is bugging me as we are still at the studs and insulation stage as the building permit we didn't need after all is not in yet, but the plumbing is completed and no more leaks so no more mopping up water every morning, I also have a light that works in the kitchen which is also great. But I guess I want my kitchen back in there.
As I said I am not sure what is wrong at the moment I just don't feel me,
I have commitments to teams here and at the moment I have no real dedication to them which I know is awful, so I apologize.
I must get me sorted out, find my direction and purpose again and find my focus, until then please don't give up on me, but rather just bare with me please.
Thank you emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LYNCHD05 10/11/2013 10:21PM

    Oh Anjay, I hope you are feeling better now. I have missed your blogs for some reason but I am caught up now! Too much stress is not good for any of us.

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JUNEBUG150 10/5/2013 11:37PM

    Don't worry, we won't give up on you. You're a sweet person and we care about you. Hope you can find some time for yourself to do whatever you want to, to relax and unwind. emoticon , Melody

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MINIMOE1 10/5/2013 10:02AM

    Sounds like you need some down time. You can't do it all for everyone. emoticon

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ROCKPORT9 10/3/2013 9:07PM

    Renovations are tough and family, some friends can be tougher. Do something good and kind for yourself each day. Big hugs, Laurel

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KALIGIRL 10/3/2013 1:42PM

    Sounds like taking time to unwind will work.
All the best my friend.

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SOPHIEDO13 10/3/2013 12:26PM

    I've had remodeling done on my home I'm sure once yours is done you'll feel much better !! I'll keep looking for your posts. emoticon

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LOPEYP 10/3/2013 12:03PM

    I think when our home is cluttered or in the midst of a project that it affects our lives. Try to take a step back, make a list of what needs to be done, and then start attacking it. You don't need to do it all at once. Sometimes just writing it down helps! Take care.

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NSMOOMAA 10/3/2013 10:50AM

    I hurt for you my friend. I know all you are doing and continue to do!!! Not only family here, but your family in Scotland also. Not to mention friends!! You are such a wise, thoughtful and strong woman. Just remember to take time for you. Just sit and watch the water, drive to the beach and walk...whatever works for you!! i am always here with coffee, wine an ear and a hug!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHY4ME 10/3/2013 10:49AM

    HUGS tried to call but you must be out. I hope you have a better day, but as you know, I could have written the reno blues blog too! LOL
I am frustrated cos my kitchen counter is always cluttered and I do so well with the small one in the trailer. So this am that is the goal, clear the counters.
Later this afternooon we have to take dad to burnside and check out lift chairs as the OT suggested a diff type than the one we saw at Lawtons. Then we have running around, then will get some ready for the trailer as tomorrow am, we want to go vote early, then leave for trailer as we SOLD!!! the winter tires and are meeting the person in Truro. They said can you meet half way to truro, said we can do better we will be there on Friday lol

Okay sweet friend, have a good day and don't feel pulled in too many directions.
HUGS Will try to call later.

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NASFKAB 10/3/2013 10:19AM

  sorry for the stress all the best

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KIMPY225 10/3/2013 10:15AM

    Sorry to hear about the family stress. Do your best to take a moment and breathe and relax! emoticon

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BARBIE042 10/3/2013 9:35AM

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VOLARI52 10/3/2013 9:29AM

    Anjay hope your are feeling a bit more connected by must be so difficult to have all these renovations going on around you and having to deal with family stresses...this is for you emoticon take care emoticon

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GRAMMAALI 10/3/2013 9:04AM

    Thanks for sharing. Sometimes our feelings get us in trouble. I know mine did this week. With all you have been through, want to do still, and seeing things not the way you think they should be can be hard. And then when other's have expectations of us on top of it, it can seem too much. Prayers you get it all sorted out, can relax a little, and have much peace.

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    The great thing about blogging is that you can just experience freedom of consciousness and let the words flow and once they have flowed, you feel relieved.

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