Wednesday, October 02, 2013
This is the part I really have a problem with. I feel better so I want to do everything NOW and I can't!! I have to remember that I'm still healing and I can't do everything I want to. I have to still use the walker, I have to move slowly, I have to baby my body. I can't drive. Going up and down the stairs is exhausting and I sleep a lot, way to much for me.
I can't wait until I can drive. Then I can go to my garden and at least sit and relax there. I can also get out. It would also mean that I can sit up for long enough as well.
I have to say though this is the hardest time for me because I'm not used to just laying around and resting. I always hear the "voices" saying "get up and get moving", "you're just being lazy", "keep working!". So it's hard for me to just rest. I am working on it. Even on my "days off" I always accomplish a ton. I never just sit and rest.
Well I'm working on it. It is time I work on the nasty "voices" and make them go away. Because my DH makes sure I understand that He believes I should just lay around and heal and He feels that is my job right now. So it's just me be over motivated and pushing to hard.
I might even start doing my counted cross stitch again now. At least it will make me sit still and focus on something else.