Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Well, it's one of those days where I start out real motivated, happy with my progress. Then after lunch, sitting here at my desk, I get this overwhelming feeling that I cant do this, so why try. It has happened a couple times in the past week. Even though I am tracking what I eat & I am excersising, it just doesnt seem like I am getting anywhere. I want to start jogging but with past tries(and fails) I just cant seem to tell myself that YES, I CAN. There are 2 of us in my office. The other girl eats whatever she wants all day long. Now, I am not one to judge by any means, but she really can't afford to be eating like she does. She is larger than I am. which is not my point at all. My point is, i smell her pizza, whataburger, see her eating candy bars, hear her crunching on cheetos(I love cheetos) and I am over here either snacking on a celery stick, or not eating anything at all. ITS SO FRUSTRATING. I obviously can not tell her what to eat and what not to eat, or that i would appriciate it if she didn't eat at her desk at all. I have been pretty good and strong for a year & a half while she eats fresh donuts and taco villa, but I feel like I am cracking. I dont even like donuts, yet I want one. I am not a candy bar eater, never have been, YET I WANT ONE! I told you guys in a previous blog that I was confused on whether I should count calories or carbs, I got alot of real good info, but I just am not sure which way to go. I walk everyday on my lunch at least 30 mins, I climb the stairs for 5 straigh minutes 2-4 times/day. I do squats and wall push ups every time I got the the restroom. I walk at night with my daughter and started jumping on her trampolene with her for added cardio. I know I am doing better than I was, but I just can't shake this feeling. I am a scale junkie! My official weigh ins are friday mornings, but i still look every morning. I read the articles on the scale being somewhat of an enemy and weight does fluctuate, I just cant seem to break that habit. Right now I feel like I am starving, even though i just ate a nice salad at lunch. I dont know. I hope the feeling I have goes away soon. I really like having the feeling that I am getting somewhere and doing good.