Wednesday, October 02, 2013
It really seems to hit only when I'm in the planning stage and during the first few days of the implementation stage of eating healthy.
It's the constant hum in my head as I drive around town... ooh, there's a Dunkin' Donuts, I could get a bagel... Mickie D's, just a dollar menu sandwich... 7eleven has pizza slices... or just grab some chips & dip?
That all this is going through my head at 8 in the morning, when I'm only a few minutes away from home where I can eat a filling, nutritious breakfast is besides the point. My only saving grace was that I was still in my pajamas (having just dropped the kids off at school) and the line at the drive-thru was long.
Skip forward a few hours and the hum continues. How can I make something completely bad for me out of all the healthy ingredients I stocked up on this past Monday? Yesterday afternoon (after lots of good choices) I found myself eating 3 pieces of my husband's white bread, toasted & slathered with butter, just for the sheer sensation of it. I ended the day with more good choices than bad, but still!
And speaking of Monday, while I was at the store buying all of these gorgeous vegetables & fruits for my juicer, I grabbed a tube of Pringles on the way to the checkout & managed to eat the entire thing on my way home. Wasn't hungry, but even getting ready for my fresh start on Tuesday there was a part of me scanning my surroundings for junk... salty, savory, high fat, raise my bloodpressure JUNK.
So, one minute at a time, I'm trying to push through. I'm trying to be forgiving of myself, I'm trying not to listen to the hum. It will pass...