Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Im beginning to wonder if anyone is reading my blog's? I was once a part of a very interactive, creativily designed weight loss website that was very blog-orientated, that really helped me with my motivation and you could see how many people had clicked on each blog. The sparkpeople design really hides blogs and makes them almost pointless to a degree - much better web layout and interactive discussion needed Sparkpeople!!
Well I have a couple things on my mind as I write this today - so this may be a long one. First and foremost I just want to get some of the venting out of the way...... the government is shutdown, I work for the government - not at the federal level, and I work for the government near DC - many of my friends are out of work, roads are closed, parks are closed, services are closed, DC government can survive for about 2 weeks then an entire city of 2 million people is closing down - these people pay just as much if not more taxes as every other person, and the residents of DC don't even have representation in Congress, and at a moments notice the entire City can shut down. All over the prospect of withholding healthcare to everyone in the nation, wow wow wow.
I attended an event yesterday that was a 90 minute drive each way, my boss whom I have a close relationship with was in the car with me. We are close in age and very similar in mindset. He is the one who approves my leave and will be the one I turn in my doctors excuse for surgery to, so he would have eventually found out I was having surgery - so I told him. I mean it wasn't even uncomfortable and im still iffy if I should have done it - but hey my god people are going to eventually notice, and I just thought id put it out there, its not like he can tell anyone because of hippa. He was supportive. So I got that out of the way.
today I was supposed to have my exercise evaluation, a dentist appointment, and another unrelated doctors appointment. But I had to reschedule everything at the last minute yesterday, as the Mayor has been on edge lately and going to the appointments would have been really bad. They are all scheduled at the end of the month for times in the am, and this is the last time I can reschedule most of them because they have been rescheduled multiple times = I have no words, no words, im asking permission on Friday from my boss for these appointments and he better just let me have them otherwise it will delay my surgery by more time. ive already delayed this process by a month by pushing back appointments due to work conflicts :(
Which leads me to Boston - I won a young professional scholarship to go to a conference in Boston, the conference is the premier conference for people in my profession, and other people who I know from my State were there as well as a friend from graduate school. The flight up there was rough - mainly because my boyfriend and I surprise surprise had a huge fight before I had to get on the plane, so I was exhausted from crying. I realized I was obese when I had to ask for a seatbelt extender and couldn't fit in the seat without the armrest up - the man next to me saw my predicament and thank god told me we could leave it up = humiliating. I was not prepared for the amount of walking required in boston and my shoes and I were in a constant fight, as well as the cold. The first day of the conference another attendee asked me to go for a walk on the street before the meeting started, she gave up on me after 20 minutes realizing that I was grossly out of shape leaving me to fend for myself to walk back. that 30 minute walk almost killed me and I quickly realized I am morbidly obese. I couldn't fit in cafeteria or restaurant chairs - that was a first, and on the flight home I sat next to a very large man who also kept the armrest up, but I was legitimately worried that our two weights next to each other would angle the plane - he went like 500 pounds no lie.
so yesterday I quit weight watchers. I successfully paid $600 this year to gain 35 pounds on the program, at least my wallet wont be feeling that pain each month. The hospital recommends using he app myfitnesspal for its surgery folks, so im switching over to that soon, but honestly im still in the phase of "I should eat it now because when I have surgery I wont be able to, lol". but I have started to exercise, slowly recovering from my bad foot - I did my first workout Monday and plan to workout again tonight and tomorrow :)
ok my god enough with my boring ramblings, nobody reads this anyway......