Wednesday, October 02, 2013
First of all – thank you guys so much for your support on here. It does mean a lot to me even if I can’t thank each of you personally each time. I love the support system on spark and you guys definitely have brightened my days.
I know tensions are high everywhere these days, but I was shocked yesterday by some of the negativity I witnessed in the world. The guy who hit me lying about it to the insurance company is one thing, but I witnessed some outright straight in your face bullying and disrespect yesterday.
One of my old friends, one of the sweetest and most giving people [she is a nurse and took over caring for her little sister when their single parent mother died unexpectedly] posted a link to a Jon Stewart video on facebook yesterday. All she said was “I usually don’t get political, but this helped me understand what is going on” [video was basically a replay of the School House Rock “Just a Bill” song which IS educational no matter where you stand on the issues] and the first commentator said some of the most awful things to her that I have ever witnessed online in my life. I can’t even begin to repeat them here because they made me sick.
Later in the day, I witnessed two coworkers have an exchange that to me was a demonstration of bullying. I feel very uncomfortable and awkward. I have been the victim of workplace bullying in the past and I always wished someone would step up to support me, and now I see the other side and I can see why people would be scared to rock the boat. I’m trying to think of a way to address it without getting TOO involved but if it happens in front of me again, I will not be able to stay quiet. There is no reason to treat someone like that, and I believe I can calmly state that fact without being in the wrong.
I don’t consider myself a pushover, but I do believe in civility and the golden rule. We deal with so much JUNK in our lives every day, why do we have to push that onto others? Are people so miserable that they have to release some of it on innocent bystanders? I ask you, please, for the love of the universe – do or say one nice thing today. To anyone. Even a dog. Put some positivity out there. I bet you’ll be surprised when it comes back to you. Believe it or not, we’re all on the same team. And this also applies to treating YOURSELF better too. Gotta put good in to get good out!
Speaking of positivity – I found a guy to fix my car at cost. He is furloughed right now and could really use the money. So that guy thought he was screwing me over by lying to the insurance company when he is really going to be helping out somebody in need. I feel like SOMETHING good is coming out of it, even if it involves me spending money that I don’t really have.
On a more Spark related note, I did not get to work out yesterday because I got sucked into a lunch and learn at work and had to take my car by a shop after work. My coworkers noted my hummus rice cake lunch while I sat with them eating French fries around me. It only mildly bothered me. I made a chicken salsa bake for dinner. I think I mentioned on here before how I have started eating dinner on the small plates? I swear it is working. I thought about getting seconds last night and reconsidered. I used to think this small plates thing was nuts but it seems to be legit!!!!! I’ve also been oddly good about using the tracker even through dinners this week. Not sure where that change came from either? I did have to force myself to eat breakfast this morning. It is SO complicated – that balance between not eating or eating too much lol.
So I might not be going balls to the walls this week but I am trying. I’m off to think up some ways to spread positivity today. Man I sound like a hippie but who cares? Nothing is wrong with a little love & kindness – to both ourselves and to others. Will you join me?!