Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Two weeks ago, I had my ICD ( inter-coronary device ) checked, and they said I had an episode. The cardiologist would be shown my charts, and I would be contacted. So 2 days later, I get a call to go in to see her, and she changes my meds, and decides I need to see a specialist.. the guy who implanted the device into my chest.
As someone who has congestive heart failure, the ideal response would be for me to eat as healthy as possible when told I might have a problem, but when they leave me wondering if death is imminent, I tend to get nervous, and eat poorly...lol
I am almost positive that my cardiologist is aware that I have congestive heart failure, and hypertension, even if my last BP was only 90/60. Still she persists in making phone calls to me to tell me I need to be somewhere with no explanation. I, of course do not worry at all.. instead I panic..lol. I have a very active imagination, and within hours have thought of dozens of reasons why I am close to death. Thanks, Doc!
So I did what I always do when I need to forget things, and feel good. I ate. Ate poorly. I did get in to see the specialist last Friday, and he looked at my charts for about 30 seconds, asked how I felt, and said, " You're great ". Thanks, Tony the Tiger. Now I am craving Frosted Flakes. At least now I am 98% sure I will live. There is always a 2 % chance of death while in a hospital..lol.
I struggled pretty much throughout the weekend, and am finally eating on plan. I am re-starting Atkins Induction today. I have to return to the cardiologist on October 14th, but the specialist told me she " sees stuff on the charts, and makes decisions based on that ". So basically she is covering her butt in case of a lawsuit. She has plans for me to do either a sleep study ( for sleep apnea ), or a trans-esophageal echocardiogram, which sounds as fun as spelling it. They shove a camera down my throat, and take pictures of my heart from my throat.
I have already had sleep apnea. When I was 361, my neck was so fat, it made me stop breathing. I was on oxygen for 2 years, at night. I would wake up, gasping for air, and I was exhausted in the morning, and napped throughout the day, until going to work. I am sure I do not have any problems, but she just can't stop herself from doing more tests. I am going to tell her NO on October 14th. The throat camera is to see if my heart valve is leaking any worse than it has been for 12 years now, and I have already told her I am not doing any surgeries till my brother graduates. I am going to tell her I don't want to see her for 6 months. We can still be friends though. Well, actually we aren't friends..lol.
So now I have to get back on track, and lose a little weight. Induction will drop that off quickly, and hopefully by the time I see her on October 14th, any damage she caused is undone. Except for the large bill I will get for the specialist though..lol.
I am guessing that a lot of heart patients are overweight, and many got that way from eating when nervous, so why would they purposefully make people nervous. The best one was 5 years ago. They called me on Friday right before work, and told me I needed to be at the hospital the next morning. I told her that I was working the next 3 days,and couldn't go into hospital, or I would lose my job. I said I would see her on Monday. The nurse told me " You might not make it till Monday . "..lol. Needless to say, that was a great weekend for me. It turned out to be a simple medicine change after some bloodwork.
Maybe I need to tell my cardiologist the title of this blog. I think having her stop trying to make me nervous, is easier than seeing a therapist to undo my eating poorly while nervous.
Anyways, I wrote this blog also to explain some of the reasons for my limited presence here the past few weeks. I was busy with going to doctor/panicking, eating poorly ( guilt ), and actually had some personal things making me busy too, which actually helped a bit.
Hope everyone else is having a good week. I'm off to cook chicken.