Tuesday, October 01, 2013
I always believed in making the best of what you have been given. I have found over the years that I haven't always done that. I have allowed myself to feel down and not worthy. I let my sadness take over and really believed that I just didn't deserve to be happy. well I do deserve to be happy. I have been given a second chance at happiness and I for one am going to capitalize on that second chance and new day.
Now I have to keep moving forward even if it is only one step at a time - and make it happen for myself. I want to continue to feel good about my life and my opportunities, even if small. I want to show my daughters that working hard will pay off in the end and they don't have to settle for something they are not. they can reach higher and find that rainbow and pot of gold.
for me health and happiness is that pot of gold. I have the happiness - now I need the better health. one day at a time - better food - better choices. that is how I need to be - just me.
so I'm still plugging away at my goals - and my class too. just taking one day at a time - moving forward even if slowly. I'm not going to get depressed about my progress - I'm going to move forward daily - keeping my goals in front of me and allowing myself to feel again - allow my emotions to move as well - for years I kept them bottled up and hidden away - not any more - I will not hide my feelings and I will not eat them away either - let them out and go beyond them - not getting stuck and not allowing myself to feel sorry for myself any longer - I'm the one making this life happen or not happen - it is all me - no one to blame but myself for my situations - just me - and now that I have taken the time to see this completely - that I don't have to answer to anyone else but me - I do have some standards to live by - and I am going to take that path and find my way again.
I'm in a good place and feeling stronger every day - I may not know what life has in store for me, but I do know that I have a second chance here and I'm not going to let it pass me by - and my wish for anyone else out there reading this blog - is the same thing - take today as your second chance at your life your way - make it happen for yourself - stay positive and find that path towards better health and happiness. find your spark. I know you can do it because I am as well. one day at a time - one meal at a time - one step at a time - one choice at a time - one smile at a time - just one - that is all it takes to move forward - one small step.
we can do this together - join me and know you are worth the effort.
take care of you! stay strong - and take that first step