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The "L" Word

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

"Do you think youíre busy enough?Ē

Nothing sends you into quite the layoff panic mode like being asked this question by your bossís boss. I tried a few different strategies to avoid running to sugar for comfort, but nothing worked this time for me and I found solace in Rice Krispie treats left over from an office party earlier in the day.

I guess Iím not proving my value at work to the new Vice President.

It was asked in a friendly enough wayÖ but even the VP herself, while thinking out loud, suggested she probably shouldnít be asking me that. But now that itís out there, I get to look forward to going into work everyday and fighting to keep my job. How are you even supposed to answer that question?

I should point out that Iím at the 8 month mark in my current job. It was around this time during my last two jobs that my anxiety really picked up and I started scouring the job boards for something new. I wasnít necessarily planning on doing that this time around, but unless I can get a grip on managing my anxiety around this and NOT think each day might be the day the pink slip comes, Iím not sure what else to do.

After binging and a subsequent sugar crash, I lost all motivation to get my evening run in today Ė not a good thing, as Ė ironically Ė I needed to work late last night to meet a project deadline and wasnít able to run yesterday either. So thatís two skipped gym days Ė which isnít going to help me achieve a sub 2:00:00 half-marathon next month. And itís not like I can afford to slack Ė I looked up my 10k relay time with my husband and found we were at 1:01:00 ( wp.me/p1N36Q-jG ). To be fair, we donít really know what our individual times were, so itís quite possible I did a 25 minute 5k Ė but highly unlikely.

No exercise and poor eating certainly isnít going to help me get through this. I have a personal training session tomorrow night, which forces me back into working out. And perhaps I can use what Iím feeling right now to fuel a new Binge Free/Wheat Free streak tomorrow Ė that what I eat will strengthen me for the days to come. Still, itís frustrating to think itís October and I feel like Iím exactly where I was at in January Ė just not in a very healthy state physically or mentally.
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    Yeah, that question would kind of throw you off your stride.
    1163 days ago
    It's always hard not to let outside stressors affect our healthy journey! Try your hardest to keep it out of your head and just keep pushing! Remember all the progress and good things you HAVE changed, instead of the things that have remained stagnant! Then take that positive and look at how you might shake up the other things to get them changing, too! emoticon
    1163 days ago
    I sent you a mail here on SP.. I hope you take it in the spirit it was sent to you!

    I enjoy your blogs!
    1164 days ago
    Oh how I WISH my boss would ask me that, cause I'd tell him in no uncertain terms just HOW busy he keeps me!
    1164 days ago
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