Tuesday, October 01, 2013
I seem to have lost my mojo somewhere along my journey. When I started my last job, I worked very, very long hours and just lost my motivation completely. I put back on all of the weight that I lost plus an extra 15 pounds. I am officially at my highest weight ever! I am still shocked by that, but I need to acknowledge this is writing for it to actually hit home.
I have moved on to a MUCH better job that is a lot closer to my home. I have the opportunities to get out and be more active. Some days I really want to, and do. Some days I just really want to, so most times I don't. I just can't seem to keep the motivation going like I did last time. I am really frustrated with myself because I cannot seem to get my *hit together this time.
How do you do it? How can I do it? I am feeling like I am just beating my head against a wall. I will not ever make any progress. I will always be stuck behind this roadblock. It would be easier to just stay like this and learn to live with it. How do I get past these thoughts. I know that they are not true and I know that they are not right, but my frustrated brain is stuck in an unhealthy loop and I don't know how to reset my thought process.
Please help me get restarted on this path. Please.