Tuesday, October 01, 2013
When you set your goal wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy far in the future, sometimes you realize that you can't see the forest through the trees.
When you have a major goal, you set out thinking, "This is it. This is the time. I will be victorious. I shall not stumble."
Then you come across that first road block. It's this first road block that really gets to you. You're cruising along and then BAMM!! Hopefully, you gave yourself enough following distance to decide how to react.
I can tell you right now that whenever I have begun a 'program', that first roadblock is debilitating. It knocks me right on my butt. EVERY TIME. I find myself sitting there, contemplating if I should even continue. Knowing that all my past experiences have led to failure. Knowing that all my past experiences led to 265 pounds.
I'm not really sure why this time is different. I'm not sure why I am trying so much harder and am so much more determined. I'm not sure why. I just know that I am.
These roadblocks may or may not get easier to avert on your journey. I find myself on this stoppable roll. Then the weekend comes, or an event, or a matter of convenience.
I was doing great at the end of last week. I finally squeezed my booty into my bridesmaid. Then I spent time with 'A' and his family. Carne asade for lunch. Zero healthy options. I grabbed a dinner roll. I was criticized and made the center of attention. I caved. I ate too much just so they would stop commenting on how I was eating 'like a bird'. I gained three pounds that day.
I don't know if that dress would fit if I try it on now. It was a tight squeeze Sunday morning, LoL. Back on track, starting now. I may bring my own meals and snacks next weekend. This dress must fit.
I will eat based on my needs, not theirs.
Family can be a road block. Try to remember that they mean you no harm. They think (at least in my case) that if you're not participating, you're not having a good time.
Road blocks are road blocks are road blocks. You have to find a way to maneuver around them. Don't remain stuck. Don't turn around.
You can do it. I believe in you.
I believe in you because I believe in me. I believed in me when no one else did. So I know you can do this, too.